IMAGINE INFINITE

This is just base on false-hope, and how a guy’s confession will effect on a girl’s super tied up feelings. everything written on this blog is just based on the AUTHOR’S IMAGINATION! thank you! hahaha

The (End) Beginning of Something New

The domino effect is a chain reaction that occurs when a small change causes a similar change nearby, which then causes another similar change, and so on in linear sequence. ©–Yahoo

**Mia’s Point of View**

My story doesn’t begin in “once-upon a time”, it will also not end with “they lived happily ever after”, cause my life wasn’t made to make you believe in happy endings, it was made for us to know what’s the difference between reality and fantasy.

Lemme share my story ..

Just The Beginning.

I love Yhuon. That’s all I know. I feel comfortable when he’s around, he lifts me up whenever I’m feeling down *Heaveen!*. He never fails to make me smile when a tear were approaching to fall from my eyes. He sings for me, he talks with me almost everyday even though he’s far from where I am. And that’s how I fall for him even deeper.

You wanna know something? Okay. I’ll tell you, a not-so-secret one. He is my first love, I once believed that he can be my one and only love, I once believed that he was my true love. And I once believed that we can have the future together. He’s on his suit and i’m in my gown walking down that aisle, but that was ruined. Yes! I think you got it right. He is definitely my EX! HE IS MY PAST, Letting him go was the biggest mistake I have done so far, but not my biggest regret. We became best of friends and treat each other as brother-and-sister.

He confess his feelings toward me and decided to court me again. I feel so happy and contented I almost say my “yes” to him again. But destiny and fate came and intervene again,

Kej confess his feelings to me, I became numb and started to feel something I know but that’s impossible. It shouldn’t be, but how can it probably be If I know I love someone else?or i’m just stuck in the thought of me still inlove with Yhuon?

My feelings and thoughts got tied up!

I don’t know what to feel, It was messed up. Totally messed up.

Just a simple confession change everything.

I’m starting to fall, I thought you’ll be, i thought you will. But that was just another mistake, another false-hope, another stupid words that really had an effect on me, but now I know that there still no one willing to catch my fall, i thought this never ending domino effect will end in a happy ending, that you and I can stop this domino effect by falling to each other, but what had happened was the totally opposite of what I thought.

Nagkagusto ako sayo, nagkagusto ka sakaniya, gusto pa rin niya yung ex niya, yung ex niya may girlfriend na.

Antanga ko, antanga mo, antanga niya, at ang saya nila. ayos di ba? hahaha ganiyan naman talaga ehh.

Once you fall dapat alam mo yung mga consequences mo, parang ako alam ko na impossible mo akong magustuhan dahil hindi naman ako kasing ganda niya, hindi naman ako kasing puti niya, di kasi ako siya. Di kami pareho, magkaibang- magkaiba kami. It was like a dream, a dream that is impossible to happen.

Kaibigan. Yun lang naman ako eh, at yun ka lang sakaniya. ano? sasabihin mo pareho tayo ng nararamdaman? hahaha. HECK NO! sabagay di ko naman kasi alam nararamdaman mo at di mo rin naman alam ang nararamdaman ko so pano natin masasabing pareho lang tayo ng nararamdaman? okay. itong post na to ay napakagulo, kaya READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

Di kita mahal, hindi naman talaga hahaha. Like, yun lang naman kaya di ako talaga nasasaktan, sabi ni kambal “huu. Affected ka lang eh” di naman ako affected ehh, pero nalulungkot lang din ako malaman na yung taong gusto/mahal mo, nireject ka. o'diba bongga. hahaha. malungkot kayo pareho. bakit? kasi pareho kayong nagmahal. Ako eto pacrush crush lang, iwas-iwas sakit lang hahaha.

Mahina ako. Oo. Ayaw ko masaktan kahit sa anong paraan. ang gara nuh? takot ako dun, it’s either physical or emotional. ayaw ko. nakakastress eh. 

pero ang masasabi ko lang talaga. In the right time, at the right age maiinlove din ako, yung mga panahong matatag na ako! kaya kayo, MAG-ARAL  MUNA. puro landi eh hahahaha. chos

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Beginning.

I still remember the first time I saw you.

I can still see your smiling face when you told everyone to “Fuck off.”

Yes. I was there that time just watching at the little corner of that bar.

It was actually fun seeing how you manage to say those things when you are a little drunk.

It was indeed creepy, your smile, and a little scary when you talk but I liked it.

I liked how’d you tell those men who wanted to woo you to fuck off, it’s not every day that I see a woman standing up for herself.

That was the first time, and obviously not the last time that I saw you.

After that night, I can’t take you off my mind.

I have been to places to find you, I got tired, but I didn’t stop till I finally did.

I saw how happy you are with him and felt like I have no chance in you.

We became friends, best of friends.

And that was the most ridiculous thing I have ever done, but I didn’t regret it.

I loved how you were happy, I loved how’d you smile from those little things.

I hated seeing you drowning into your own tears when he left you.

It hurts when you choose not to talk to anyone, most especially with me but what can I do?

You build high walls that no one can break through.

And you know what’s the thing that hurts the most?

It is seeing you lying on your bedroom floor with your own blood all over you.

It is too late. it is too late to save you.

You took away your life. You took away my paradise.

And now I was still here devastated. Lost.

And hoped that I can turn back that time when everything was fine.

But I can’t.

How can I find another paradise when I’m stuck in that simple paradise you have made?

This was the letter I have had found left in the table of the bar I always went to.

I hate how it made me tear up.

The kind of guy who wrote this is as unusual as the one he talks about.

I didn’t know if it’s just another story someone made up or a real story of another person to tell.

But still I fold the paper in four and kept it inside my pouch.

I drink the last shot of the tequila I ordered and left.

Like the guy who wrote it.