♡ K.N.D ♡

Just a reminder that you’re whole without someone else. You are not a fraction. You’re a complete masterpiece all by yourself.

I sat on my sink and just stared at myself in the mirror. I stared for a while and my mind just got lost within itself. I couldn’t pinpoint what was wrong with me. What is it that makes me unloveable? I love and love and I give everything I possibly fucking can. But then here I am staring at myself in the mirror with yet another broken heart and asking myself “why?” ; I just want to hold someone and give them a place to call home. I want to bring someone to life and kiss their pain away. I want them to love me back just as much or even more. I’m tired of being let go of. I stopped falling in love because I knew it wouldn’t work out. But then I gave it another chance and found myself lying on my bathroom floor at 2 in the morning with my heart in the palm of my hands as I watched it turn from the a bright fiery red to a dark grey while it slowly stopped beating again. 4 hours later I had to put on a smile and go to school and pretend I was okay. I went home and laid in bed and claimed school stressed me out when it’s just me that stresses me out. I want to live a full long life with someone. I might be “too young” to some people but at 17 years old, I shouldn’t be left not believing that love is magical. It’s supposed to give me hope, not fucking terrify me.