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May we all smile more in July.

May we all experience ease in July.

May we all worry less in July.

May we all get good sleep in July.

Obviously you don’t “like” being abandoned. But it’s your nervous system trying to solve something unfinished because when we have abandonment wounds, our system becomes highly sensitive to inconsistency and withdrawal. So when a person pulls away, it can trigger a deep fear response and instead of stepping back, you might feel pulled to move closer. So it makes you want reassurance from people who are emotionally unavailable and get more attached to someone after they distance themselves. Doing more when they give you less or a popular one, confusing intensity or anxiety with connection

There’s a reason for this. Psychologically, it’s tied to patterns like attachment theory, especially what’s called anxious attachment. Your brain is trying to recreate a familiar dynamic in hopes of finally getting a different outcome (being chosen, stayed for, not left this time)

There’s also trauma bonding which is where inconsistency (warm -> cold -> warm) actually strengthens attachment. It can make you feel more hooked the less stable someone is

So really, what you’re chasing is relief from anxiety, validation, closure, safety etc. I think, a lot of the ways we define emotions aren’t entirely accurate. And a lot of people have built their life around false beliefs. I digress

The people who trigger that chase feeling are often the least capable of giving you what you’re actually looking for. Healing this doesn’t mean “stop caring.” It means learning to recognize things like, calm doesn’t equal boring and inconsistency doesn’t mean chemistry. Or that being chosen doesn’t require you to earn it

Now another layer to this. Abandonment wounds can still happen even when someone can’t point to a clear experience like a parent leaving or a major romantic abandonment. Abandonment wounds often come from subtler patterns like emotional inconsistency, conditional love, being physically cared for but emotionally unseen, or growing up in environments where your inner world wasn’t consistently reflected or held for you. Even friendships or school dynamics, like feeling replaceable or occasionally excluded can shape your nervous system