The Unknown Source

Wow! You really get me, don’t you?

First off, WHAT? You don’t know me. Secondly, how does the way one types lead you to make assumptions about their thoughts?

I’m thinking you must be triggered by my most recent post, where I show solidarity for my trans brothers and sisters. See because here’s what you DON’T know about me. I believe that all people regardless of their race, religion, sexuality, gender identity, culture, and yes even politics deserve to be treated equally as human beings.

It’s when they pull shit, that minimizes the life experience of others, when they weaponize hate, and bigotry, that I get fucking pissed.

I work the overnight hours 10pm - 6am.

But here’s the thing. I take care not to fall asleep on my shift, because it wouldn’t be fair to my shift-mate. Every single person who works with me overnight, just goes off and naps. And I got yelled at for sitting in the comfy chairs on the library, because “If Day and Swing Shift can’t relax, nor should Noc.

So here I am, in so much pain that the mere thought of standing up makes my whole body spasm, and I’m changing residents out of wet briefs, bending to put new briefs and dry pants on them. Setting up the dining room (strictly speaking it’s not in my contract to clean and serve- I’m not being paid extra for it) I’m escorting people to bed, flipping bed-bound residents so they don’t get bed sores; all while my shift mate sleeps away in the recliner, with a blanket.

You’re tired? Congratulations so am I. I’m still doing my job. She’s going to disappear to do the med run right as it’s time for last rounds.

So I don’t get to sleep today. And fuck Jim

On Monday the guy I’m renting a room from tested positive, but since he’s feeling fine, he’s wandering around the house massless, working in the yard, inviting friends over… I mean fine, it’s his house, I can’t expect him lock himself in his bedroom like I did… but still.

I promised myself no matter what I was going into work today, even though I still am not 100%. I got my ass out of bed, was too exhausted to shower, did a quick “whore’s bath” and dry shampooed my hair.

Went to work, told the nurse as soon as she let me in that I needed to be tested before I did anything.

Guess who is still positive after 11 days of this shit? Not only that but when I asked someone who isn’t my direct supervisor if I qualified for Covid pay, I was told “the company no longer does that, you can try this program, or apply for PTO, I’ve only been there a month, I have no PTO, and the program only covers people who have been working there for a year.

Let me be clear, I caught Covid from our residents. They got sick, I got sick from caring for them. There should still be hazard pay for that shit.

Im sure it’s psychosomatic, but that doesn’t mean I feel like working 8 hours, and fighting to keep things in line.