a fantasy I have but possibly shouldn't admit: destroying a lee as a form of self-advertisement.
Like, wrecking / traumatizing a lee so bad they actually publicly call me out online and tell everyone I'm unsafe, a predator, a sociopath, etc.. And it makes 95% of lees block me, and I get banned from all gatherings. But there's maybe 5% of lees, who are the really fucked-up ones with dark thoughts, who read the account of what I did and think "holy fuck I need that. I can't find anyone who understands that that's what I need. I need to message this extremely creepy, possibly-dangerous ler and throw myself at them so I can experience it for myself. And also, I'm terrified of that. But I like feeling terrified."
And I do think it could work out that way. As a general thing, the more you tell people someone is really bad, the more attractive they become to a certain kind of person. People are drawn to monsters. Even serial killers have had groupies.
The hard part is figuring out exactly what I do to the first lee that's SO awful that they think I'm worth warning people about, yet intriguing enough and ambiguous enough that draws in the 5% I want. It can't just be "they violated my consent". That's... common.
It has to be something like "even though we agreed to CNC, they took it way too far. I clearly wasn't enjoying it anymore and they kept going. The tickling was so forceful sometimes that it hurt, and I still have bruises from it. They mocked and degraded me. They tickle tortured me all night, even after I said I was exhausted and needed to sleep. I was gagged and hooded, and I started to relive traumatic past experiences, and I had no way to tell them to stop. And then even after they took out my gag and I told them I was triggered, they clearly didn't care. They just laughed at me and got visibly hard. Then they put in an even bigger gag, though I was begging them not to, and they proceeded to give me so many orgasms that it hurt, all while tickling me and taunting me about my past trauma.
"Afterwards, they said they were going to give me aftercare, but they just tickled me more and groped and fingered me. I felt so dirty and so disgusted. And like, yes, I consented to sexual touch in advance, but at that point they could see how it was affecting me. At that point I was just crying, not even laughing anymore. They definitely did not care the slightest bit about my well-being beyond using me to get off."
And I would just reblog like, "Yes, that is all true. I have no regrets and I still masturbate thinking about it. Hashtag cnc tickling hashtag make lees regret it hashtag tickled to tears" etc etc
Then I get like 20 reblogs condemning me as everything wrong with the tickling community, and 1 DM from a lee who wants to get to know me.
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