Tsuki

"Y/N! Someone wants to give this to you."

Dear Y/N,

My name is Hwang Hyunjin, the boy you never knew or set an eye on. There's a lot of things I want you to do for me. If you would want to—it's okay if you won't. This is just my last wish—wishes.

Holding my hand while walking.

Giving me kisses before we sleep.

Saying "I love you" before closing our eyes.

Hugs during the worst times. (We all need someone to lean on.)

Going to my favorite café! (I want to go there with you.)

Binge watching movies in the midnight! Don't forget the popcorn!!

Having a nice vacation in a beach.

Introducing me to your family and to your friends.

Cooking me good homemade breakfast! (Do you cook? :3)

Stealing my shirts all the time! (You look cute in it ^_^)

Taking kkami to a walk in the park!

Cuddles and pillow fighting every weekend nights

If you're wondering why.. Well, I might leave this world without meeting you again. I'm at the hospital, writing this right now. I hope Seungmin will take care of you! Thank you for always being my inspiration. I know I want to say a lot but this paper limits me. Please do this with me before I leave you.

I-I Love You. Forever. -Hyunjin <3

Tears fall down from my eyes. No way, is this happening? Is he really gonna- No. Am I really too late? I should go to him! Now!

delete apps and social media that lowers your mood 

wear a new scent, throw away things you don’t need, delete contacts of people who make you feel unworthy, unfollow social media that makes you feel bad in any way

make a new playlist that makes you feel confident and happy 

in a journal, write down why you want to change, the traits of the person you truly want to be, the places you want to go and people that make you feel inspired

write down the things that stop you and bad habits you have, and replace those with new mindsets and habits 

before you sleep, make a detailed, achievable routine for the next day, that includes everything you want to do, including activities that genuinely make you happy

try new hobbies, like baking/cooking, playing a musical instrument, making art, learning a new skill, a sport, or a new language. you can easily get free resources online 

think about the ideal version of yourself. you can be like that, if you try your best and work hard. 

do not overwork yourself or set overly lofty daily goals and forget to do things like drink water. make your sleep and health your number one priority.

spend less time on your phone scrolling through social media. have a method of focusing on other things, like Pomodoro method or using the Forest app. 

if you can’t concentrate, commit yourself to doing it for 5 minutes. once you get into the flow it’s much easier to concentrate.

be patient and kind with yourself. it’s hard to change overnight. you’re the only one who can help change you, so be a friend to yourself.

once you start something, promise yourself you will finish it. 

have new weekly routines, like going to a cafe every Wednesday afternoon or indulging in your favourite tv show every Friday night.

do not deny yourself of good things; there needs to be a balance. similarly, do not be too generous and overdo it too much. 

dedicate a day to clean your room and organize your things if you feel stressed out. 

it may feel scary to change, as you may feel like it’s not the real you. but you’re still you, just the best version of yourself.

have a relaxing morning routine to look forward to, like making a nice breakfast, having a skin care routine, stretches, journalling, or thinking about nothing for a few minutes

have a mental image that makes you excited to do something. visualize yourself completing the goal and concentrate on it every morning.

however, learn not to rely on motivation because your brain will often turn off motivation, especially when you first begin something. have a routine, a specific time to do something, and do it. 

notice the places and people that drain your energy, and try to avoid them. find people who make you feel energized and places that calm you.

think about an enjoyable part of something. for example, when studying you can look forward to learning new things and when exercising, listening to calming music or using nice stationery. it’s actually more fun than you think. 

even though it’s hard, don’t compare yourself. you’re on your own path, and it doesn’t matter if people are better than you, because there will always be someone better than everyone. don’t be afraid to suck. so draw badly, write bad poems, run slowly, make embarrassing mistakes and fail everything. you can’t be good at something unless you’re terrible at something first. and doing anything badly is so much better than doing nothing.

don’t tell anyone about your new beginning, just start and let the results speak for themselves.