BONJOUR!

You made me feel special every day and made sure to remind me you’d always stay. I fell in love with you on a Sunday, singing to our favorite song on the highway. People said our love was cliche, but to me it was more like a lifelong holiday. You were sure we’d live in Monterey and I’d become your fiancé. I was convinced from the start that I’d never let you get away.

You’re heavy on my mind at 11 o'clock at night. My thoughts are intertwined with things that don’t feel right.

If you were to press your heart close up against somebody else’s heart eventually your hearts will start beating at the same time. And two little babies in an incubator, their hearts will beat at the same time. Love that. So if you have somebody in your life that is prone to anxiety, like myself, and if you happen to be a calm person, you could come up and hug me heart to heart and my heart hopefully would slow to yours. And I just love that idea. Or maybe yours would speed up to mine. But either way, we’ll be there together.

Whatever you decide, don’t stay because you are afraid of change, saying goodbye, or ending up alone. There is nothing more harmful to your heart and soul than sharing them with someone not meant for you.

I admit that for me love goes deeper than the struggle, or maybe what I mean is, love is the deeper struggle.

There are two reasons why people don’t talk about things; either it doesn’t mean anything to them, or it means everything.