Francesco Paolo Hayez

— Shirley Jackson, excerpt from The Haunting of Hill House

— Ada Limón, Bright Dead Things; “What Remains Grows Ravenous”

— Traci Brimhall, “You Said the Lambs Were Ready” from Come the Slumberless To the Land of Nod

and i will cut and bleed, i will, i will, i will until i have reclaimed this body for myself, until i am so fully mine nothing else can touch me and i will recognize myself in every mirror and every picture and i will love and i will trust that the world is filled with love and beauty despite it all and i will cherish my own capacity for love and I will sit in it from time to time until it covers me completely. and then i will get up and go on, i will always go on, i will. and i will love myself deeply and i will find the words at some point. and i'll keep trying even if sometimes i forget. and life will be filled with art and love and feeling and hope. and i will create it for myself.

Oversharing with Ryan

The Face Magazine, September 1999

Les possédées du diable / Lorna the Exorcist (Jesús Franco, 1974)

Le Bonheur (1965) dir. Agnès Varda

Du côté de la côte / Along the Coast 1958, dir. Agnès Varda

NOPE 2022, dir. Jordan Peele

Stalker (1979) dir. Andrei Tarkovsky

Salman Toor (Pakistani, b. 1983), Cloudy Day, 2017. Oil on canvas, 101.3 x 101.3 cm.

when the blind date doesnt go as hard as you