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Isamuās habit of self blame (a short analysis)
I am giving my two cents like I promised and feel free to correct me if somethingās incorrect COUGHS
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Isamu has a clear habit of taking responsibility for situations that are out of his control. This shows up when he holds himself accountable for the Kawasaki wreck and the deaths connected to it as well as the way he carries guilt about Senzai and his family situation. These patterns likely stem from specific conditions he was raised in.
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Akihitoās approval was entirely dependent on performance. Both Senzai and Isamu were expected to follow a law related path and any deviation or failure risked losing your status. Isamu was the least favorite child for the majority of his life and later became the only one after Senzai left and was considered casted out of the family.
Isamu was probably taught that outcomes matter more than effort or intention.
If he does something wrong, the safest thing explanation is that he didnāt do good enough. Taking the blame can become some sort of way of control. If it is his fault, then the next time he can try harder and avoid the same result. Itās very obvious that Akihitoās approval is unstable because I mentioned it a handful of times, so Isamu likely internalized that behavior and carried it into adulthood.
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Normalization of household dynamics can also play a role in this pattern. In j3 where Isamu says that line that he didnāt know implies that he did not fully register Akihitoās behavior as abusive (thatās my only logical explanation). Pressure, outbursts and the overall atmosphere were treated as normal parental discipline.
There was not an outside perspective or someone who couldāve named the problem, Isamu had no framework to place the blame elsewhere. So self blame became the default explanation.
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Isamu saw witnessed the physical abuse Senzai faced (referring to the art letter incident). Even if he didnāt understand it at that time, living with that fear of becoming the next target creates a sense of hyper responsibility. In this position Isamu felt that he shouldāve intervened, spoken up or fixed the situation (he expressed those type of thoughts in j4 later on).
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Isamu faced limited emotional guidance and domestic support. Isamu had to rely on himself early on. He didnāt have a reliable figure (for the majority of his life) to tell him that it isnāt his fault, he was left to manage the consequences largely alone.
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I feel like the way I structure my sentences are so confusing sometimes, this is probably a me thing
reverse role character introductions : antagsamu and the origin behind the au
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antagsamu was the character that prompted me to make this au. it wasn't from the thought of a villainous protagonist, nor was it from the thought of isamu being associated with the cult in the manner senzai had been (although, the story does follow the direction wherein isamu does become an ally for them).
so what was it that had me making this au?
and i quote,
ā i think if isamu were an antagonist for book 2, I donāt think senzai, [how do I say this], would have his heart taken away. i think isamu would willingly give up his heart to enzukai. ā
that was the message that started it all (so much for spoiling the big plot twist of my book 2 reversed). small remark said in a voice message between me and one of my friends, on mindless rambling about isamu's character. it had been an interesting thought, the idea of isamu's heart containing some special quality that allowed it to free enzukai of their seal (it was mentioned by the lore writers somewhere, i just don't have the screenshot anymore).
the more i thought about it later that day, the more the idea sprouted. and when i made a concept design, it had seemed like the seeds of development planted themselves further into an au. it's been a few months (late january was the month of creation for that guy) since and i finally feel open enough to at least share the general au idea.
see, when i say this au is a reversal in roles, i only intend to switch the role of protagonist and antagonist. they still, fundementally, are the same characters at their core and have not swapped traits. it's just some aspects have been amplified to fit the position or the message i want to send. isamu still is isamu, just has been placed in a position where he opposes the protagonist, that being senzai. or has had traits to him that are explored here where the original has failed to. this au also was meant to be a big parody on how badly the lore writers fumbled some writing aspects that i wish were explained. although, i could be turning a blind eye in my writing (just because i wrote it) and ignore a repetition in the mistakes they made while making my own au. hey, self awareness ig
antagsamu general lore explained horribly (budget in explanation gets lower w every new paragraph) :
the story of book 2 stays the same for the most part. senzai is still whacked by the bottle, abused and distances himself from his family. isamu takes the role of "favorite child" and follows the whim of his father, obeying commands as a form of safety for his wellbeing and the possible consequence that is tied to disobedience.
with having talked about senzai's violent behavior (in a now deleted post), this affects isamu in a negative manner, coupled with the pestering wants of his father to be accomplished, now that the achiever, senzai, has gone away and he (isamu), as back up, has to fulfill the gap that is left behind. isamu was neglected. he never had a proper grasp on independence, self-sufficiency and genuine care from either of his remaining family members, making it difficult to adjust in an unfamiliar role where superiority feels like a new set of shackles, binding him to new expectations, placing his unimpressive self upon a pedestal where exemplary performance is anticipated.
the years of neglect may have been invisible to the eyes around him, but it still took a toll. the constant threat of harm being imposed upon him physically or mentally, whether it be from his brother or his father, made him a fearful thing. so silence was his only way out, assuring protection where speech was punished. 7 years flew by and for the 2 recent years, he had grown to be a detective.
a dull one at that.
pain has to come out, one way or another. and so it did, through drinking often, a loss in appetite or just the general inability to even provide for himself, nights spent walking back home drowsily, days where lifting his limbs felt impossible, where absence in the office had grown in number more than his presence. what an unimpressive person and an unimpressive life.
nearly giving up, he impulsively makes a decision: that he travel to a secluded island in the south and hope he'd find temporary reprieve from the weight sitting upon his chest.
arrival wasn't as smooth as anticipated. a creature knocked over his ship and brought him to a minka. danger had made itself known when a lady dressed in red chased after him, only to register an abnormality within him. the woman, conversing with a mouth behind her head, came upon a consensus: that he follow her. suspicious, the detective asked for reason and they in response told him that he was "important ". reluctant, he allows himself to be led to a lair in which an oni resided. the red dressed woman, who he assumed was named rin, explained what she found odd in him to the figure chained. she sensed something from his chest, that no other being that had come across the island had before. she explained that it could possibly be the key to setting them free.
isamu didn't take long to register the cult-like behavior of this woman, alongside other yokai worshipping the oni chained above. the oni, named enzukai, clarified what the woman meant to the detective, stating that something be needed to free themselves of these chains. it so happened he had it, and it was his very heart. isamu found the implication of the statement tempting. if he had his heart taken away, he would no longer have to live with what others expected from him. if he had just lost his life, maybe death would be kinder than life ever was to him.
but as much as he desired it, he also was skeptical. so, with his wit, he proposes a bargain, one with much intention:
āā if senzai proves to be the brother he claims he is, then I shall join. and when I do, you can use my heart to free yourself of the seal. that way, iāll become of service to you. āā
his request is absurd at first glance, a planned suicide wrapped under dedication for a cult. he asks for death to befall him, but not without reason. he would complete obligations, obligations he deemed necessary and beneficial.
haha this is part 1 wait for part 2 (which'll come never ok im joking IT'LL COME!!!!! SOON ENOUGH!!!!!! part 2 is protagsenzai's perspective, which will serve as continuation⦠or maybe i might post antagyasu WHATEVER WHATEVER WHATEVER). oh my god why is he so depressedššš ANYWAYS thanks for reading, now have bonus artworks of the guy (which were all posted on my tiktok, except the last one, that was a seperate post here on tumblr):
and even more bonuses, the first proper concept work of his design (made in school months back WHAHAHAHHAHAH):
Should I drop my two cents in and try to analyze why Isamu blames himself for situations way out of his control??? I know I mentioned that in Isamuās upbringing but still.
And maaaaybe bring up external perspective or framework.
I have no idea what to yap about šš„

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I wish they had expanded on these dialogues a bit more. It wouldāve really helped us understand Isamuās situation better.
Isamuās upbringing
Hello, before I start I would like to add a TW for abuse.
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Isamu endures significant emotional,psychological abuse and neglect within the dysfunctional household he was raised in. These harms arise from conditional approval, high performance demands and emotional volatility. Isamuās experiences highlight how abuse can manifest through subtle mechanisms such as normalization of harmful dynamics and self blame.
Understanding his situation involves examining the family environment, the shifting dynamics after Senzaiās departure and the long term effects on his mindset and actions.
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Akihito maintains strict control over the household, enforcing expectations that both sons pursue law related careers. Isamu begins as the least favorite child, receiving less attention or validation. The art school acceptance letter incident marks a turning point.
Akihito violently rejects Senzaiās ambition, after which favoritism. Senzai eventually distances himself and later states that he stopped being a part of the family.
While Senzai is gone, Isamu becomes the sole remaining child. There is no longer anyone of the scale for comparison. ā Favoritism ā in this context is hollow, there is no rival or counterpart against whom Isamu can be measured. Him having the sudden spotlight doesnāt make it better for him as he has to carry Akihitoās expectations. Approval remains strictly on performance and obedience rather than genuine care. Failure carries the risk of disappointment or anger.
Isamu experiences pervasive emotional abuse centered on conditional love and performance based validation. He internalizes the need to succeed in the law enforcement to specifically make his parents proud, tying his sense of self worth to external achievement instead of inherent value. This dynamic creates on going anxiety about falling short and encourages suppression of personal desires that might conflict with Akihitoās expectations. He lives with the fear of angering his father, reflecting a household atmosphere defined by intimidation and emotional manipulation.
Emotional neglect deepens these effects. With a deceased mother and a father who prioritizes academics, Isamu faces adolescence and adulthood with no emotional support. The home prioritizes achievement over nurturing, leaving him without constant guidance or reassurance. This fosters loneliness and forces premature self reliance, reinforcing the message that his needs come secondary to meeting family standards.
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Separate from the emotional layer, Isamu also faces psychological abuse through the normalization of harmful family patterns and the distortion of his perception of reality. Raised in an environment where Akihitoās authoritarian control, scolding and outbursts define daily life, Isamu appears to have internalized these behaviors as normal or expected. His line ā Iām sorry, Senzai. I didnāt know ā (spoken in jealousy 3) reflects his conditioning. As a child and teenager he lacked the external perspective or framework to recognize the treatment as abusive rather than standard parental discipline. Difficult emotions and conflict go undiscussed, further entrenching this normalized view.
Witnessing Akihitoās harsh treatment of Senzai adds vicarious trauma, installing fear of becoming the next target while instilling guilt. This contributes to a pattern of self blame that extends beyond the household. For example, Isamu holds himself responsible for events largely outside of his control, such as the Kawasaki wreck and the resulting deaths, reflecting deep seated psychological effects where he internalizes fault as a default response. The warped memories in Jealousy 3 further highlight how the household distorts relationships and self perception, exploiting these vulnerabilities. Over time this psychological conditioning leaves Isamu questioning his own experiences and carrying guilt into adulthood.
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Domestic and supervisory neglect form is another aspect of Isamuās experiences. A clear indication emerges from his admission during Jealousy 2 that he has never cooked before when tasked with preparing meals. Cooking is a basic life skill usually taught or supervised by parents. Its absence suggests that Akihito prioritized career demands and personal issues over practical guidance and daily involvement. This points to broader supervisory gaps where Isamu manages significant aspects of his daily life with minimal support.
Such neglect compounds the emotional and psychological harm. In a high pressure environment, attention focuses narrowly on achievements while essential nurturing, emotional availability, skill building and everyday skills receive little emphasis.
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This analysis came out shorter than I expected it to be.