cried until i remembered i am a sweet & resilient girl full of light and also a droplet of water in the ocean of consciousness. so my resolve has strengthened for now :)

I think people like to be slept on like literally fall asleep on them if you love them I think it activates the monkey brain and lets them know you trust them enough to keep you safe from predators while you rest also cuddle is nice and makes people have big cartoon heart eyes :) nap on your friends and give them a big ole squeeze it is nice i prommy

sometimes when i feel undue lust i imagine the emotion as a hot lump in my mouth and I swallow it in a big gulp

i became romantically involved with a ****phile a number of years ago, unknowingly, and his MOTHER texted me just yesterday to relay a message from him that he was in prison and very ill and how really its all a big misunderstanding and he didnt do anything to hurt those kids and that anyway he wants to reconnect because he's been thinking of me. on one hand I am sick with disgust, and on the other I am sorry for his poor mother, whose only baby is a monster. how impossible it must be to face. I can understand why she believes his lies, because the alternative is to lose her only family in a way that is worse than them dying. but it is selfish of her nonetheless, to want him free like she told me she does. to put more girls at risk. i know what kind of sick things he likes, because he made me participate in them. I want to tell her all of this. my heart breaks when I think of it.