mima! 🪽

my best friend of 5 years and my only friend last year dropped me today. She said we’re just “different people” and she “needs space”, so stupid. I know there’s something deeper but I haven’t done a single bad thing to her, ever.

it’s fine though because now I have more leeway to smoke at school, she always hated that

I’ve been smoking a lot more and my classes are pretty boring

I had an okay time, 7 classes is not for the weak lol I’m already very fatigued, I completely lost my hunger cues

I smoked during lunch break with some friends, I think my best friend doesn’t like me anymore so I’m distancing myself from her. Life goes on

he’s telling me I “asked for” what happened, bringing up my trauma and calling me schizo, bringing up my mental health and using it because he has no real backup

it’s upsetting because I do get paranoid that because of the fact that I used to have psychosis, sometimes I can’t differentiate reality from what’s in my head, but I know what he did, I felt it and I lived it. It was too vivid for me to be making it up, I even have pictures

i just love him so much, i dont think thats a problem