venus

hey lol i'm back after another failed recovery attempt <3

i know i haven’t been active for a bit, but i just wanted to remind you that if you’re following me because you have an ed fetish, please leave! i am not at all comfortable with having my posts used for things like that, and i do NOT want to engage in any sort of sexual or otherwise perverted conversation, especially not revolving around my disorder. 

“my ed isn’t bad” i say, as i have my gourmet meal of viamins and monster ultra

can’t wait until i’m more comfortable in my body so i can show yall my outfits (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ

broke my fast with a piece of toast and peanut butter and immediately after i finished eating my stepdad told me he ordered me food .｡･ﾟﾟ･(＞_＜)･ﾟﾟ･｡. i appreciate it but why couldn’t you have told me BEFORE i started eating

never mind i ended up being able to fast yesterday ♱♡‿♡♰ i should be able to today too, but i don’t know yet. although it’s been almost 40 hours since i last ate, so i probably shouldn’t go another full day. man, i just really do not want to eatttttt (╥_╥)

love when i pick days to fast based off of my parent’s work schedule and they decide to take the day off or switch shifts (╥_╥) this was the only thing i had to look forward to but now i’m going to be forced to eat 

i wasn’t gonna eat today but i ended up binging over 1,800 calories so my week is not off to a great start ｡･ﾟﾟ*(>д<)*ﾟﾟ･｡

active ed blogs in january.... ooh you want to be mutuals with me so bad ooh... ooh you want to reblog this so that i can find some more blogs to follow ooh....

according to my calorie calculator i could potentially be at my ugw in 12 days if i eat less than 700cals/day ♡´･ᴗ･`♡ i'm excited !! i think i may lower my ugw though ,, i'm still nowhere close to where i want to be.

update: i have never fasted for more than like. 20 hours before, and when i went to eat i felt so sick (╥_╥) i only ate a passion fruit which is really small, but i’m so nauseous. i shouldn’t have fasted for so long with not being used to it (>_<) 

sorry i haven’t updated in a few days but !! i’ve been eating a lot less. i haven’t eaten since wenesday but for some reason i really don’t want to? like i just don’t. want to put food in my mouth. but my parents are off today so i’m gonna have to. (ｰ ｰ;)  and on tuesday i only had 98 caories so i think i’m doing really good!