"Everywhere." (dbf!joel x reader)
summary: Before beginning to work in your new job, you decided to visit your dad in Texas for the whole summer break. What you didn't know is, that you would meet your teenager's crush, your dad's best friend, again. Joel fucking Miller.
trigger warnings: dbf!Joel, age gap (reader is in her 20s, Joel is in his early 40s), no!outbreak!Joel, some mentions of y/n, a little bit angst, 18+, smut (f!nger!ng, praising, s3x, ect.)
a/n: well, it's been a while since I posted. I hope you're all doing well and I hope you'll enjoy this new ff. <3
(sorry for spelling mistakes, english is still not my first language)
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It has been two months now since you have this special affair. Every time you sneak over to him, your breath quickens, and butterflies fly around in your stomach when youâre getting nearer to him.
Every time you lay in bed alone, you feel his hands and his kisses all over you.
Every time you think of him, thinking of every night you two had⊠you can't bear the ache between your legs.
But it is not just the sexâŠ
Every time youâre with him, you forget all your worries and fears.
Every time you're with him, he makes you feel safe.
When you think of all this, it is just perfect.
No one can know that you sneak out mostly every night to go to him.
No one can know how you feel about him.
When youâre not alone, you just have to act like your just neighboursâŠ
Even if you are neighbours.
Itâs not easy. Itâs hard.
But even if the fear of having to end everything doesnât let you go⊠it doesnât keep you from doing it.
Maybe someday, you can let everybody see.
But thatâs all just in your head. You love him, you really do, but⊠itâs complicated.
You donât know if he really feels the same way about you do.
But thereâs one thing you really know.
Youâre in love with Joel Miller.
Yes, the Joel Miller whoâs nearly twenty years older than you.
The Joel Miller whoâs youâre neighbour and has known you since youâre a teenager.
The Joel Miller youâve watched doing work in his garden.
The Joel Miller with these beautiful eyes and strong arms.
And⊠the Joel Miller whoâs unfortunately your dadâs best friend.
You were 14 when you moved to Texas with your dad. It was shortly after your mom and dadâs divorce. He got the legal custody of you. And you were kind of relieved that you didnât have to live with your mother. Sometimes in the past, she got pretty impulsive towards you and your parents just kept fighting. But you still have some contact with her.
So, it was good to begin all over again. You went to a new school, made some friends and all kinds of that stuff. Your dad also found a new job and got along with the neighbors, especially Joel Miller.
They got along pretty well, since they were both a single dad with one daughter.
But all besides that, you never really knew him. You waved him when you saw him outside.
When he was over at, your dad's house you simply said hello. You never really wanted to talk to your dads' friends.
But everything changed when you became older. You remember how your dad asked you to look after Joel 8 years old daughter Sarah and you didnât say no to that. It was a good way of earning some money of your own.
So, youâre started with 18 to babysit Joel's daughter. And thatâs when you started getting a slight crush on him. You noticed over time that you feel different with him than with the two or three boys in your age, you dated in the past. Over the two years youâve started getting an immense crush on him, but it was hopeless. It was just a dream fantasy of him and you getting together since he was that older than you. Just a teenagerâs crush.
At the end of 19 you left for college in Louisiana and told yourself to grow up. You studied philosophy and even if it wasnât always so easy, you finished from college and then even got a job as a professor in another university to teach philosophy.
But before you started working in your new job, there was a long summer break. And after all the learning and writing exams, you deserved it the most.
You decided to visit your dad in Texas and stay there for the whole break because you didnât see him often for the past years. You also wanted to spend your 26th birthday with him and in your second hometown.
You pulled over your car in the driveway and parked. As you got out of the car, your dad already walked towards you. âOh, thereâs my girl!â, he smiled happily and hugged you tightly. âItâs so good to be back home!â, you said. Your dad and you small talked for a bit while he was getting out your luggage out of the car. Suddenly, you heard a very familiar voice.
âHey buddyâ, you heard, and you turned around. You saw them talking and then saw who he was.
âHey, you still remember âŠ?â, your dad says but you already finished the sentence in your thoughts.
When he stands in front of you, you freeze. He looks even hotter than beforeâŠ
How can someone look that good in his 40s?
You cleared your throat. âYea- of courseâ, you responded. Your heart begins to race. âUmm- Howâs Sarah?â, you asked firmly. âSheâs doing really well. Sheâs on a vacation with some of her school friends for the whole summer break. But she would be so happy to see youâ, you remembered him replying with his texan accent.
And thatâs how everything started. You saw him way more often and talked to him when he was at your dadâs house. He made you laugh and feel safe. Every time he was just near you, you couldnât think rationally. The first weeks after your arrival, you spend a lot of time with Joel since there was a lot going on your dadâs work.
Every morning after breakfast you went over to his house and you two played UNO, chess or simple board games. He showed you around the neighbourhood and told you everything youâve missed while your away. You noticed that during the time you spent together, he looked at you in a different way. You thought youâre just being delusional, but he acted differently towards you, but differently good.
You often caught him staring at you, every time he called you âdarlingâ or âprincessâ, you got goosebumps and when you teased him, which you loved, he got so nervous.
There was just this tension between you two.
And one day, it just happened. You were at his house and put on your shoes to go home because it was already kind of late and you wanted to get home before your dad did.
Joel was sitting on the couch, watching football. âYouâre sure you got everything?â, he asked you while looking at the TV. âYea- I think soâ, you replied and put on your jacket. You put your hands in your pockets and noticed that you forgot your keys. They were lying next to Joel on the other side of the couch.
You smirked, walked over to him and bend right over his lap to grab your keys. â âjust need to grab my keysâŠâ, you mumbled and felt his whole body getting tense. âI know what youâre doing...â, you remember him mumbling under his breath.
âIâm not doing anything, old manâ, you chuckled, grabbed your keys and walked towards the door. He stood up and you thought he would open the door for you, like he always did, like a gentleman. But now he was just standing there.
âWell, I wish you a good night, thenâ, you smiled and opened the door half way, until he closed it. He pushed you against it and the next second you felt his lips on yours. You froze and the butterflies in your belly got crazy. Your heart was racing but you immediately wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed him back.
And thatâs how this whole affair thing started.
Nearly every night you sneaked out to him, like today.
Youâre in his bedroom and the only thing you can hear is heavy breathing, moans and skin clapping together. âJoel-â, you breath out while youâre lying on your stomach, and heâs fucking you from behind.
His one hand grabbing your waist and the other hand pulling your hair back, makes your eyes roll back. âFuck, youâre so fucking tight-â, he groans and thrusting into you even deeper.
You squeeze your eyes together, slowly feeling that very familiar feeling in your lower stomach. âJoel, Iâm gonna-â, he cuts you off.
âNo, not now. I wanna look at you-â, he gasps, and you suddenly feel an emptiness in you, as he pulls out.
âJoel-â, you whine, and he flips you around on your back. âShh, you can take itâ, he breathes. He leans over you and kisses you passionately. His tongue explores your mouth, and you still can taste yourself in his mouth from him eating you out earlier.
His hand slides over your belly, grabbing your breast and squeezing them harshly while his other hand spreads your legs. He breaks the kiss, and you gasp for air. You look right into his eyes⊠his beautiful eyes.
He rubs his tip over your wet pussy, teasing you. âFuck Joel- I cant-â, you whimper and bite your lower lip. âYou canâŠâ, he whispers and pushes his hard dick into you.
You moan satisfied as the emptiness fades away. He begins thrusting into you while his hand is slowly wrapping around your neck.
âYouâre such a good girlâŠâ, he groans and pushing your waist into the mattress. It doesnât take you long for you to feel that familiar feeling again. Joel feels it too.
Between your loud moans and breaths, you want to say it, but he places his lips on yours. âI know, baby⊠me tooâ, he breaths. Everything gets tense in your body.
You chuckle slightly, but your chuckle fades quickly, by feeling him directly hitting your g-spot. Your moans get louder and you roll back your eyes.
âLook at meâŠâ, he slightly growls by being just concentrated on you. You feel his dick twitching inside of you. You pull yourself together and look at him. His strong arms, six-pack shining in the moonlight that comes through the window.
âMy beautiful girlâŠâ, he moans, and thatâs it
âCum for me.â, and you do. You cum all over his dick which leaves you breathless. You look at him, while he continues thrusting into you two more times, until you see his mouth opening and feeling him filling you right up.
You come fresh out of the shower wearing comfy shorts and a white tank top. You put your towel dried hair up in a bun and walk downstairs to the kitchen. You hear the shower still running upstairs, since Joel is still in there.
You walk to the fridge and open it. You get out a beer for Joel and an ice cream for you. You close the fridge and walk to the living room, placing the cold beer on the table and take a quick look at the clock.
While eating your ice cream, you look at Joels house plants, which just nearly survived because of you. You chuckle sightly and begin watering them.
âthey would already be dead if I didnât had youâ, you hear Joels voice say behind you.
âI knowâ, you reply quietly and concentrated on the plants. You hear Joel sit down on the couch and open his beer. As you keep watering the plants, you see Joel searching for the TV remote.
âit is literally right next to youâ, you sigh and let out a chuckle. You put the watering can away and jump on the couch next to him. His stare is fixed on the TV while he drinks his beer. You rest your head on his shoulder and he puts his hand on your thigh, caressing it.
âJoelâ, you mumble and keep watching TV.
âĂ have been thinking about⊠well, how this all will go on, when the summer break ends..â, you whisper cautious, watching his reaction directly.
All you hear is a sigh from him while he takes a sip from his beer. âgo on?â, he replies focused on the TV. You gulp, moving away from him and sitting up.
âwell yes- how will this thing go on?â, you ask more seriously, pointing on him and you. âor donât you want it goes on?â, you mumble, feeling your heart getting heavier.
âânever really thought about it-âÂŽ, he replies with a sound like he doesnât really give a shit, heâs just concentrated on his TV. You scoff and get up. You grab your bag pack and walk to the entrance, slipping into your shoes.
âwait-â, Joel sighs and you hear him get up. âthatâs not what I meantâ, he mumbles and rubs his forehead while watching you.
âwell, I think its really clear what you mean and thinkâ, you scoff again and grab your jacket. âlook- I never really thought about itâ, he grabs your hand and pulls you towards him.
âI donât know what you expect from me-â, he mumbles. Your heart gets heavier again, and you shake your hand, while you can't believe whatâs really going on.
âwhat I expect you to-â, you stop and take a deep breath, âIâll go, my dad will come back from work soonâ, you whisper and get your hand out of his grip.
Opening the door. âgood night, Joelâ, you mumble and walk to your house. The last thing you hear from Joel was a loud sigh, and then the closing of the door.
Youâre laying in your bed, staring at the ceiling. The bright sunlight was shining through the window. You think about last night and sigh.
âDid he really never thought about itâŠ?â, you think to yourself.
You stand up and walk over to your desk. You look in the mirror, noticing some hickeys on your neck.
Your mind plays back last night, his lips pressed on your neck, while his fingers are buried inside of you. How he- ây/n, would you come down please?â, you hear your dad calling from downstairs, ripping you out of your thoughts.
âYes!â, you reply and sigh. You quickly grab your cute summer dress out of your closet and quickly make yourself ready in the bathroom, covering up all these hickeys. While you run downstairs, you put your hair up in a messy bun. âWhat is it, dad?â, you ask loudly and walk into the kitchen.
âYou remember how I talked about these grill partyâs, every neighbour does for the neighbourhood? Today its my turnâ, you hear him talking out of the living room, while you grab yourself a coke. âyeah, what about it?â, you ask, making your way into the living room.
âwell, I need your help in organising, Joel isnât enough, you knowâ, he laughs, and you freeze in the doorway, looking at Joel whoâs sitting next to your dad on the couch.
âJoel is helping us since weâll help him next week when he has to do the grill partyâ, your dad says, looking with a smirk to Joel. You donât answer.
âhey? Did you hear what I said, lazy head?â, your dad laughs while Joel looks at you. âyea- um sorry. I heard youâ, you mumble as you pull yourself together and clear your throat. âI mean, yea, I can help you. What should I do?â, you ask, trying to ignore Joel and just looking at your dad.
âwell, while I get everything prepared here, you and Joel can get groceries shoppingâ, he suggests and takes a look at Joel, looking for a reply.
âSureâ, Joel replies and gives him a pat on his back. âI mean-â, you get cut off. âWeâre already on our wayâ, Joel says and gets up, grabbing his cars keys which are laying on the couch. You scoff, shaking your head. âCome onâ, Joel calls and opens the door.
âbye dadâ, you mumble quietly and grab your shoes, putting them on and walking through the door, towards his car.
âThanks for asking meâ, you whisper annoyed and open the car door and take a seat.
âYouâre welcome, darlingâ, Joel replies and gets in the front seat and starts the engine. As he begins driving, you let the window down and close your eyes, relaxing under the warm breeze on your face.
âhow did you sleep?â, Joel suddenly asks, trying to smalltalk and you chuckle. âyouâre really bad at small talk, you know that? But I didnât sleep well, noâ, you reply and watch the kid's playing soccer as you pass by a house.
âlook, because of yesterday-â, Joel begins talking but then stops. He rubs his forehead and takes a deep breath.
âI-â, he tries. âweâre thereâ, you cut him off and directly as he parks you get out of the car.
You have no nerves for this now.
You two arrive back at your home, and take out the whole groceries, placing them on the kitchen counter.
âthanks you twoâ, your dad says as he walks past you, kind of stressed. âIâll be back in a minute, I need to go over to Veronicaâ, he shouts since heâs already out of the door. Veronica is one of your neighbours, sheâs a really nice old lady.
You look over to Joel next to you, who just finished taking out all the groceries. You suddenly feel his hands on your waist, turning you around and pressing you against the kitchen counter.
You let out a sigh. âJoel-â, you mumble and try to get out of his grip. âLook at meâ, he says clearly and stern.
âCome on, now-â, you whine and he pushes you against the counter even more. âI said, look at meâ, he stated. You roll your eyes and look up to him. âwhat?â, you whisper annoyingly.
The next thing you feel are his lips pressed on yours. You try to resist, but your body replies to him by opening your mouth, allowing his tounge to explore yours. You wrap your arms around his neck and pull him down to you.
âIâm sorryâŠâ, he breathes as you pause the kiss. âIâm sorry about yesterday.. of course I want all this to keep going, but- itâs just difficultâ, he mumbles and presses his lips on yours again.
âI knowâŠâ, you murmur against his lips.
âweâll figure something outâŠâ, he whispers as he stops the kiss again and caresses your cheek.
You let out a slight smile and nod. You look right into his eyes and thatâs when this desire kicks in again. You immediately slam your lips on his again, grabbing onto his shirt. You grab his hand, placing it on your clothed breast. He squeezes it harshly, rubbing with his fingers in circles around your nipple.
You whimper into the kiss, feeling this ache between your legs again. You grab his hand, leading it down your stomach, but he stops. âWe canât- your dad.â, he points out and stops.
âheâs not there yet- I need youâŠâ, you whisper desperately into his ear.
Joel hesitates. âfuckâŠâ, he hisses under his breath. Thatâs when his hand slips under your dress, pushing away your panties and sliding two fingers into your wet pussy. You let out a satisfied moan and let your head fall back.
âYou need to be quick, babyâ, he mumbles into your ear while he grabs your waist with his other hand, so he can support you in standing. His fingers slide in and out, searching after your soft spot. As he finds this spot, your moans get louder and your legs weaker.
âfuck, joelâŠâ, you breath out, squeezing your eyes together as you feel your climax building up in your lower stomach. âcome on, baby..â, he whispers into your ear while he hits this exact spot with his fingers. You hear the door unlock. As he feels youâre cumming, he covers your mouth with his hand.
âcum for me, sweetheartâŠâ, he demands as he hits this spot one last time and you cum with a loud moan, which his hand muffles.
âIâm backâ, you two hear your dad call and hear his steps getting nearer the kitchen. He pulls his fingers out of you, releases you out of his grip and licks off his fingers. You pull down your dress again and thatâs when your dad comes in.
âeverything okay?â, he asks with a smile and you nod, still out of breath.
âyeaâ, you reply and give him a forced smile back.
âThat was closeâ, you think to yourself.
âWell then, letâs make everything ready for tonightâ, he chuckles and walks out of the kitchen. You take a glance at Joel, whoâs still a little shocked since you two almost got caught. You go on tiptoes and place a kiss on his cheek. You take the groceries and carry them out to the garden, with Joel looking after you.
You hear so many laughters coming out of the garden while youâre in the kitchen to grab some drinks for outside. The whole garden was full, since almost the whole neighbourhood was there.
You go out, with all the drinks in your hand, placing them on the table. You take a glass of water and give it to Veronica, the old lady, which as your neighbour.
âthank you, sweetheartâ, she says with a kind smile. You look around, and see everyone chatting, drinking or eating. Your stare falls on Joel, who was talking and laughing with your dad while they are standing at the grill.
âHe would never really approve of you and Joel, would he?â
But you remember Joel wordsâŠ
âWeâll figure something outâ
And thatâs how the next following weeks kept going. You keep sneaking over to him at night. But your dad often noticed or saw you going out when he came home late from work, and then you always had to come up with some random excuse.
You slowly noticed that your dad has got quiet of sceptical and tried to talk about you once because you always go out late. But youâre a adult. And you really couldnât care, all you could care about was him.
It was midnight and you and Joel are laying in his bed. You lay in his arms while heâs running his fingers through your hair. Your breath was still fast, 5 minutes ago he fucked the shit out of you.
You feel so safe and comfortable in his arms, but thinking about that you have to go back to Louisiana⊠You let out a sigh and hug him tightly.
âyouâre okay?â, you hear Joel mumbling. You nod slowly, âyeaâ
Joel knows exactly whatâs on your mind. âtell me, when you could go anywhere you want on this earth, where would it be?â, he asks and looks down at you.
You chuckle slightly. âI donât know⊠I always wanted to see the northern lightsâ, you reply.
âwhy are you asking?â, you ask confused and sit up, pulling the blanket over your body.
âmaybe I can take you there somedayâ, he mumbles and gives you a slight smirk.
You roll your eyes. âyea sureâŠâ, you mumble.
âsomewhere else too?â, he raises his eyebrows and sits up too.
âcome on joel, donât play with meâ, you hit him playfully. âno, I mean itâ, he grabs your waist and pulls you onto his lap.
âsomething else?â, he asks again.
âhmm⊠maybe- the maldives⊠I was never on the maldivesâ, you whisper.
ânoted.â, he mumbles and pretends to write it down. You giggle. âsomewhere else?â, he asks again with a smile.
God, how you love his smile.
âreally? You donât even have that much money, old manâ, you chuckle as he grabs you by your waist again and pushes you in the mattress while leaning over you.
âi donât care, iâll take you wherever you wanna go.â, he whispers and looks right into your eyes. Your thoughts about you leaving immediately vanish and you give him a smile. He presses his lips on yours.
âeverywhere?â, you mumble into his kiss while your heart was pounding like crazy.
He nods. âeverywhere.â,
He replies and places kisses on your neck, while he slowly moves down your stomach. You bite your lip, looking at him how he disappears under the blanket between your legs. You let out a soft moan as you feel his lips pressed against your clit and give yourself totally to him.
You put on your shoes while the sun starts to come out slowly. âiâll come back tonight, thenâ, you mumble tired and go on tiptoes to place a kiss on Joelâs lips. He hums against your lips in agreement.
âI thought about showing you how to play guitarâŠâ, he whispers while his lips canât leave yours. You let out a chuckle, âokayâŠâ.
You grab your jacket and open the door. âsee you thenâ, you smile and walk out the door.
Youâre in town alone. Youâre walking around the shopping centre to get some ingredients for your birthday cake. Youâll get 26 years old in 4 days.
While you were grocery shopping, Joel was knocking at the door of your dads house.
Your dad opens the door. âHey buddy, what do you need?â, he asks and leans against the doorframe.
âI need to borrow this toolkit of yours, âneed to repair somethingâ, Joel says and clears his throat. âYea sure, come inâ, your dad smiles and walks with him into the living room. âWait hereâ, he says and after some minutes he comes back with the toolkit and hands it over to Joel.
âThanks, buddyâ, Joel replies and gives him a pat on your dads back.
Joel makes his way to the exit. âHey um, I wanted to ask you somethingâ, your dad stops Joel. He turns around and raises his eyebrows. âsure, what is it?â, Joel replies.
âwell um- I noticed y/n sneaking around at night and coming home super tired- I mean, I know sheâs a grown up, but sheâs still my daughter. Iâm just a little concerned , since we usually talk about almost everythingâ, your dad says and Joel gulps.
âdo you know anything? You know, since you two spend some time together while I was working, Iâm really grateful for that, buddyâ, your dad continues, and Joel pulls himself together.
âsure- no thing, but I know nothing, sorryâ, Joel mumbles and shrugs his shoulders. âokay⊠yea, I just donât want her to get in trouble or anything, not that she sneaks around with some creep or somethingâ, your dad laughs.
Joel letâs out a fake laugh too while a wave of guilt runs over his whole body.
âyouâll tell me, when you know something, right? Since weâre buddies?â, your dad asks and places his hand on Joelâs shoulder.
âSureâ, Joel replies and takes a deep breath.
âIâll have to get going thenâ, he clears his throat again and your dad nods.
âsure, good luck with the toolkitâ, your dad smiles and waves at him while Joel walks over the street to his house.
It was 10pm and you walk over Joelâs house with these butterflies in your stomach going crazy again and knock on the door. He opens it.
âHeyâ, you say with a smile and go on tiptoes to give him a kiss, but he turns his head. You look at him confused.
âYouâre okay?â, you chuckle and stand in front him, waiting for him to answer. He lets out a sigh and rubs his forehead.
âfuckâŠâ, he mumbles under his breath while you raise one eyebrow.
âlook- this canât go onâ, he finally speaks out and your heart literally drops.
âw-wait what?â, you stutter in shock and canât believe this is real right now.
âthis wonât and canât work out.â, he points at you and him.
âwhat the fuck, joel. Yesterday, you talked with me that you would take me everywhere on this world- and now, youâre like- ending it?â, you repeat everything to make it yourself clear whatâs happening right now.
âLook- this was a huge mistake. Itâs just too complicated and-â, you cut him off.
âYou said, weâll figure something outâ, you get louder and more upset while everything around you gets hotter and your eyes wetter.
âwell- unfortunately we canât. It canât go on like this, y/n. you need to find someone elseâ, he mumbles stern.
âfind someone else?!â, you repeat and canât believe every word whatâs coming out of his mouth.
âwhat the actual fuck⊠I thought you loved me-â, you nearly shout and a tear runs down your cheek.
âlove you? I never loved you-â, he suddenly says out loud without thinking. And thatâs when your whole world stands still. You stare at him with tears in your eyes.
âfuck you, joel.â, you hiss and slap him right into the face.
Then you just turn around and walk over to your house again, trying to control the emotions which are running through your whole body right now. You quickly wipe your tears away and go into your room, not looking back.
And just like that, everything ended.
It has been four days now since Joel ended this special affair.
You didnât sneak over to him anymore, but your breath still quickens, and butterflies fly around in your stomach when you see him, but this time, with a sharp pain right into your stomach.
Every time you lay in bed alone, you feel his hands and his kisses all over you.
Every time you think of him, thinking of every night you two had⊠you can't bear the ache between your legs.
But it was not just the sexâŠ
Every time you were with him, you forgot all your worries and fears.
Every time you were with him, he made you feel safe.
When you think of all this, it was just perfect.
No one couldâve known that you sneaked out mostly every night to go to him.
No one can know how you still feel about him.
When youâre not alone, you just have to act like your just neighbours, what you now just are.
Itâs still not easy. Itâs hard.
But now that the fear of having to end everything came true⊠it keeps you from doing it.
Now itâs just a fantasy that maybe someday, you can let everybody see.
But thatâs all just in your head. You love him, you really do, but⊠itâs more than complicated.
You know that he doesnât really feel the same way about you do.
But thereâs one thing you really know.
Youâre in love with Joel Miller.
Yes, the Joel Miller whoâs nearly twenty years older than you.
The Joel Miller whoâs youâre neighbour and has known you since youâre a teenager.
The Joel Miller youâve watched doing work in his garden.
The Joel Miller with these beautiful eyes and strong arms.
The Joel Miller whoâs unfortunately your dadâs best friend.
And⊠The Joel Miller who broke your heart in thousand pieces.
You sit in front your birthday cake. Your dad nearly invited the whole neighborhood and now everyone waits for you to blow out your candles. You know Joelâs here too and you feel his eyes on you. Thatâs when the sharp pain kicks in again.
You look up from your cake and see him leaned against the doorframe of the living room.
âYouâll regret it, Joelâ, you think to yourself.
Then you look on your candles again and blow them out.
âHappy fucking birthday to meâ
