Milania Nicolette Apollo

@apolloallstars: burgers w/ my babes 🍔

You’re allowed to feel jealous. It’s something you’ve never done before so of course you want to know what it’s like so you can talk about it and swap stories and laugh at sleepovers and feel like part of the group - that’s normal, but I don’t think that should be the only reason you wanna do it. I’m all for being in love or at least being in really, really like with someone before you give yourself to them. It’s almost a spiritual experience, I mean, letting someone in your body. You don’t want that to just be a random dude like Kyler from your Chem class, you know? 

It kinda does, doesn’t it? I think about that sometimes. Like, weren’t we all just at Whoops yesterday being absolutely chaotic and running from Bob the cop? It’s crazy. 

Okay. I...I...I. I don’t know. I can’t imagine taking the girls away from here. I can’t imagine leaving the studio right before Nationals. I can’t imagine being more than five minutes from Mom when I need her. But I can’t imagine having to go through what we did before with you filming and us just visiting every-so-often. It’s not like we can have phone sex and create a baby. I know we haven’t been trying-trying a lot lately but still. I’ll miss you. I’ll need you. But I can’t hold you back just because I’m being selfish. That’s not fair. Think of how much you’ve sacrificed for me and for Apollo. What if...what if we can figure out an every other week kind of deal? One week at home here for the girls and then one week we’ll come out to you. 

Shush. You never know if you don’t try! There’s different dance clinics you can go to and practice and learn - there’s probably recruiters there too! I mean, it might not be Greenville, but you could get on a Top 10 school dance team for sure. 

A lucky girl who’s worked her ass off to get where she is, I’m sure! Broadway is no joke. I sound like a dying cat when I sing, so whenever I meet someone who can sing, dance and act? Ugh, I’m obsessed! 

It’s even noisier too if you can believe it! Hi, you must be Anniston. I’m Milania! A few of my dancers who specialize musical theater would absolutely love if you came in for a class or two! I’ve already heard so much about you - Sey was so thrilled to tell us all about your history. We love having stars in the house. 

Yeah? Why not? I bet you could get a dance scholarship. Greenville’s team has been looking rough lately, I know they’d love to have you. 

@apolloallstars: mi corazón 🖤

Wow...okay. Okay, so we...we’re moving to Toronto! I’ve always wanted to live somewhere new, and the weather won’t be that different. Maybe I can leave some weekends when you’ll be free, if you are, of course, and I can come home to the studio. I know Mimi can hold it down for me for a little bit at least, and Avalon, and...well, I can Zoom in to classes. Oh, c’mere. Baby, this is exciting! Oh, this is so scary. And exciting. The girls are going to be shocked...taking them away from their friends and Nora. Oh, Nora. Maybe she’ll come and visit us. Mm, I love you. I love you. We’re moving to Toronto! 

Mm, okay, so it’s not going to feel or be that great the first like...five times you do it. Maybe even longer after that. If it does feel and seem great before five, consider yourself lucky. You’ll feel a little sore and generally uncomfortable, but as long as you’re doing it with the right person, you should only have physical aches afterwards. If you’re feeling any sort of negative emotions afterwards, that’s when there’s a problem. You should never feel less than after it, okay? It’s a natural, fun, human thing to do. Just do it with the right people and you’ll be fine. Especially if it’s the right righttt person, like a significant other, they’ll want to make sure it’s good for you too. 

Oh, how exciting! I always miss out on the fun stuff because I want to stay home with the girls. I want them to have a consistent home-life, you know? If Travis and I are both gone at once I’m just worried they’ll get too shaken up. Geez, I’m a Mama Bear over here, huh? Life is surely way different than it used to be! And oh, thank you! You need to meet them. They’re literally my entire heart and soul. And they’re growing so fast! It makes me sad. 

Travis? Oh my God, baby, what’s wrong? 

@apolloallstars: summer nights 💛