Being💗MJ

Mila nodded agreeing with him " I do trust you. Your not so bad and you have a good heart. So , thank you," she said with a soft smile. She then nodded " Yeah I know he is still mid freaking out right now. He's worried about alot of what if's and I just can't afford that worry. I will lose it if I keep worrying myself. I'm already worried enough with having my first baby. But Donny..."she trailed off at the mention of his name and sighed. She shrugged her shoulders like she had given up on him and the love she had for him. "Doesn't matter if he's emotionally there or not. He doesn't love me...at least I know that someone else does," she nodded, speaking about Kai.

Lucas listened to her and nodded. "Thanks Mila. I appreciate that." He says as he sat up, signaling to her that he was listening to her and nodded his head. When she trailed off, he didn't say anything. His eyes stayed on her and he nodded again. "If you have someone, that's important. Doesn't matter who it is, Mila."

Mila bit her lip abit and nodded slowly " Well thanks, that means alot," she said, not sounding too excited about. She sighed and looked back at the menu " By the way, why do you know so many pregnant women? Is that a fetish of yours or something?" Mila asked as she tried lightening the mood up for herself. SHe was so tired of crying,

Mila quickly wiped her tears away before it started and nodded " Thank you Brit," she smiled softly. " I don't even know what I'm going to do. I haven't even started to look for anything. I've tried, but I never get far as to clicking the payment button," she shook her head.

Lucas nodded when she took the tissue. He sat up and fixed his posture, looking at Mila with a frown. "I'm glad you told someone you trust." He said quietly. "And…thank you for trusting me enough to tell me too. You're right—you can't hide it forever. But you also shouldn't have to rush telling people before you're ready." At the mention of Donny, Lucas paused. "It sounds like he's scared more than anything." He gave a small, sympathetic shrug. "You deserve someone who's there for you emotionally too, not just because they feel it's the right thing to do." Lucas offered a gentle smile. "But…the fact that he's sticking around does count for something. Maybe he just needs time for it to sink in. Becoming a parent isn't exactly news most people process overnight." He hesitated before adding to her. "For what it's worth, I think you're handling this a lot better than you're giving yourself credit for. You're scared, yeah…but you're still thinking ahead, still trying to do what's best." A faint grin tugged at the corner of his mouth.

Mila nodded agreeing with him " I do trust you. Your not so bad and you have a good heart. So , thank you," she said with a soft smile. She then nodded " Yeah I know he is still mid freaking out right now. He's worried about alot of what if's and I just can't afford that worry. I will lose it if I keep worrying myself. I'm already worried enough with having my first baby. But Donny..."she trailed off at the mention of his name and sighed. She shrugged her shoulders like she had given up on him and the love she had for him. "Doesn't matter if he's emotionally there or not. He doesn't love me...at least I know that someone else does," she nodded, speaking about Kai.

MIla heard her and sighed in relief a little because it was nice to hear that genuinely. She could never get much from Donny when it came to her being a mother and her doing a good job. Maybe because they were always freaked about all the time or maybe Mila had doubts that Donny probably really believed that neither of them were fit parents to begin with.

Mila bit her lip abit as she messed with the ends of her sleeves abit as her arms rested on the table. Her hands were abit sweaty as she got abit more nervous before having the courage to tell him. She then shook her head " I don't think you'll be on my side for this one," she said as she started to tear up.

Lucas watched her, seeing her eyes water. He reached over to pick up the napkins from the napkin holder and handed them over to her. When she looked down, he nodded slowly. "Oh my gosh." He muttered as he watched her lift her shirt a bit. Lucas leaned back in the booth and sighed, running his fingers through his hair. "Does he know, did you tell him yet?"

Mila couldn't help but to smile slightly at his kind gesture in giving her tissues. " Thank you," she said as she took them to pat away her tears. Then sat back down to readjust herself and sighed " Yes, he knows. I told him not to tell anyone for abit until I am comfortable enough to. I'm still not, but I'm getting bigger as the days go by and it's becoming noticeable. Can't hide forever," she shrugged. " He's just...he's not so happy about it, not prepared, and just overall lost of words. But he's still going to be there for me no matter what so...I guess that's all that matters," she shrugged with a slight smile. She wanted more than that, but she knew she would never get that from Donny.

Mila put down her plate of food and dusted off her hands after hearing Donny’s response. Then looked back over at him. She knew Donny and reading in a parents book was not the cause of his question. It was something totally different. So she listened as she faced home more. Then nodded her head slowly “ Donny… you can still be an actor,” she responded back. She then thought about her situation with Kai. He left her because he didn’t think he was good enough and he wasn’t where he wanted to be in life. She didn’t want to be the reason again for someone not being able to pursue their dreams.

Donny furrowed his brows instantly at where Mila went with the conversation. "What, no.. that's not what I mean, Mila." He shook his head, maybe on a certain level he was thinking about himself. There had to be a reason he remembered his teenage dream career. But he hadn't initially meant to go there. A breath. "I was just asking about you." He pushed his curls back. "I mean, I don't necessarily agree with your statement." It was easy to say they could continue following their dreams, but it would never be the same after baby. "Besides, that dream died when I was like 22, or something. I'm just, you know, sharing." Things they never really talked about before.

“ I think I will be fine. I mean I believe that I will,” Mila stated to him with a nod. Then shook her head “ Wait which part do you not agree on?” She asked abit curious. She couldn’t help but to reach over to grab her snack to eat more of and keep focus on Donny. It was just too good to stop.

Mila looked at his expression while he looked at the menu and she knew that it didn’t sound delicious. It sounded like a huge weird combination of a craving. She was not fooling anyone at this point. “ The tone in your voice says otherwise with the look that goes along with it,” she shook her head with a bit of a chuckle. Lucas made her feel abit comfortable and wasn’t pressing the matter on what was wrong with her, which she enjoyed. But she knew it was time to tell everyone the truth.

Lucas froze, his eyes glued to the menu for a second longer than normal as his brain tried to process the words that had just come out of her mouth. He slowly lowered the menu. For a long moment, he just stared. He leaned across the table, resting his forearms on the wood, his eyes searching hers to see how she was actually holding up. As much as he wanted to celebrate, he knew her well enough to read between the lines. "Holy shit, Mila." He murmured, his voice softening. He reached across the table, nudging her hand with his knuckles. "A mom. You're gonna be a mom." He took a deep breath. "Who's...who's the father? How far along are you?"

Mila nodded as she bit her lip “Yeah, it’s kinda hard to believe I’m turning into a beach ball. My jeans don’t fit and my ass is non existent. I’m getting bigger by the day and all I do is eat. It’s like my job too,” she laughed abit as her eyes watered alittle. She was so stressed out about everything.

Mila was in the midst of making her a quick snack plate. She had a craving for sweet garlic pickles with hot Cheetos and the little laughing cow Swiss cheese. She had dressed up the pickles as if they were crackers, eating them. She nodded her head as she sucked on her fingers “ Mhm” she answered.

Donny nodded as she spoke. It was nice to see someone that got what they dreamed of, and more. "I'm just thinking..." Of course, the thoughts came from somewhere. He'd known plenty of people who had kids young (younger than they were), and whose career basically ended, or just got stuck where it was. One the reasons he was afraid of the kid. He also recalled his mom having the baby talk with him and his twin brother Sean very early on. And she had never painted it lightly. "Because I read something in one of the parents books. That's it." His voice lingered thoughtfully for a moment. "You know, when I was in high school my dream was to be an actor." Dream was probably an understatement, Donny would tell everyone that he was going to be famous. It was part of every 'about me' he ever wrote, his birthday wishes, and his 'where do you see yourself in ten years'. but it was long gone, now.

Mila put down her plate of food and dusted off her hands after hearing Donny’s response. Then looked back over at him. She knew Donny and reading in a parents book was not the cause of his question. It was something totally different. So she listened as she faced home more. Then nodded her head slowly “ Donny… you can still be an actor,” she responded back. She then thought about her situation with Kai. He left her because he didn’t think he was good enough and he wasn’t where he wanted to be in life. She didn’t want to be the reason again for someone not being able to pursue their dreams.

Mila nodded, feeling relieved with what she said. Grateful to have her as a best friend. “Thank you “ she said with a smile. she then shrugged “ Yeah and it didn’t help that I was in a whole nother country. With no family or anyone who actually knows my situation, “ she stated.

Mila bit her lip abit “ Uhh where should I start? Well um…the ex that left me in Paris came back. Which was Kai , you remember Kai right? Technically, my high school sweetheart, who came to spend half of the summer with me in Paris before starting college. Then one day I woke up and he was gone. He kissed me abit ago and then he um…kissed me again..” she scratched her head abit, hoping her best friend wouldn’t judge her in any kind of way. “ Of course he apologized and explained why he left. But then he asked me out …. I told him no so,” she shrugged. She leaned back and sighed “ And long story short I told Donny I loved him and he told me that he wasn’t capable. I didn’t realized I loved him until I broke up with him or we broke up with eachother. I didn’t tell him until I told him I was pregnant and now I wish I never said anything ,” she said and covered her face.

Mila shook her head and waved her hand off " No, that's okay. Thank you though that's really sweet.I can manage with this menu for now . I just...I just need to decide on what to do-get on this menu<" she nodded as she looked back at the menu.

"Uh huh." Brittany said with a smile and looked at Mila. "You know I'm on your side, right? Whatever you decide to tell anyone, I will one million percent back you up on."

Mila chuckled “Oh you,” she shook her head . She exhaled “ That’s easy Kai. Paco I feel is out of the picture and solely got his eyes Emersyn. I don’t want to be in the way of a woman he truly deserves to be with. Plus, I hate to admit it, but I miss Kai a lot. I just don’t know if I’m ready to jump back in just yet,” she told her friend.

Illiana nodded as she listened to Mila, and smiled. "Well we're in Japan, it's not the city of love, but anything can happen, you know?" She asked. "Maybe you and Kai will fall back in love and it'll be like some cheesy ass romantic comedy for you two while we're here." She said with a shrug. "Do you know what you're having yet? Is Donny okay with you two just being parents and friends?"

Mila thought about it for a moment and then her mind shifted to Donny. Did she really love Donny or was it something different with him. She couldn’t understand why she was feeling that way and it was bothering her.

Mila nodded slowly, thinking about it for a moment . " Hmm...maybe I should get like a bowl with rice and shrimp. Then like a side salad with dumplings...yeah that sounds good," she nodded with a soft smile. " What did you decide?" she asked Lucas as she put her menu down.

Lucas listened to her suggestion and nodded. "Oh that sounds delicious..." He muttered as he closed the menu and gave her a grin. "I'm going for the teriyaki chicken bowl today, maybe a side salad because you can't go wrong with them."

Mila looked at his expression while he looked at the menu and she knew that it didn’t sound delicious. It sounded like a huge weird combination of a craving. She was not fooling anyone at this point. “ The tone in your voice says otherwise with the look that goes along with it,” she shook her head with a bit of a chuckle. Lucas made her feel abit comfortable and wasn’t pressing the matter on what was wrong with her, which she enjoyed. But she knew it was time to tell everyone the truth.

Mila bit her lip and thought for a moment before putting her menu down " Andd tell me Emmett...what would I be going to the doctor for?" she asked him, wanting to make sure they were on the same page. She then leaned forward abit " But good to know that you'll be my designated ass kicker," she chuckled.

He looked around to make sure that no one was paying attention to them or could hear them, but not wanting to take any chances, he leaned in and held up a menu in front of the two of them, so they would have extra privacy. "For the baby that you're carrying, Mila." He whispered and leaned back and smiled. "Of course I'll be your designated ass kicker." He added as he put his menu down. "That's what friends are for, after all."

Mila looked around abit as he did and followed with what he was doing and leaned forward with him. When he mentioned the baby it was like her heart skipped a beat. She couldn’t hide it anymore and people were going to find out sooner or later.