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I guess I got a bit emotional. But seriously when I saw the “most memorable scene” for the gureshin prompts, it took me quite some time to think of something because I don’t remember what happened in the LNs as well as I used to in the past, and I don’t feel interested enough to go back and reread it. So in the end my choice isn’t something “memorable” to me at all. At the very least I wish I could have hopes because naturally Shinya has to appear in the future, but considering how things have been going on in the manga for these last years, I am not sure that when the time comes the story will actually deliver. I know I shouldn’t be assuming something that the author hasn’t written yet but I cannot help but to feel this fear in me. Elements (characters, relationships, arcs, etc.) that should have been given their proper focus have been just rushed or done half assedly for the sake of fulfilling (or as I prefer to say: “ticking boxes”). It’s as everything “secondary” (which I categorise gureshin as) has been pushed aside for the sake of prioritising the “main” elements (or rather “element without s”) of the story. It doesn’t help either that the more time passes, the more Guren is written as an asshole and the more his relationship with Mahiru is painted in a white light.

Well as the title says, it's a goodbye for knowing why I am leaving not just here forever but actually leaving this fandom forever here the reasons:

And the dirty attacks like this again and again

And sure case I don't want my friend @black-sapphire57 to get more hurt because of me btw

So I don't care what I just wanted to say this before leaving:

@oya-oya-okay thank you for being my best friend here, I liked your account, arts, manga coloring and etc the most, you made my days bright many times here with your kind words, comments and your cute posts always I would never forget you and will remember you forever love thanks for everything you did and making me smiles

@hyciao thanks a lot for being a very dear friend here to me I truly truly liked your arts a lot and talking with you was very easy I had lots of fun with you around and will never forget you thanks for making me smile in my hard days

@gureshinlover I will never forget your kindness and sweet forever and will be always thankful of you forever and for all those times you made me feel happy thanks for everything

@schneereggen I already told you in your DM before that I like and adore your fics a lot and so wanted to thank you for them all, making me feel good, smiling and etc I would never forget that how you made me excited and happy with not your fics but also your lovely post here I truly liked discussing with you around the most and was enjoying it a lot so thanks for everything

@redashera you may don't know me and you also blocked me longgg ago which I still don't know really why but I also don't care too because I respect maybe you didn't like me or anything but I know you and I liked your fics a lot and you also made me to feel good with your fics many times so even if you don't know me or hate me, still thank you for everything

@dxntics you were one of my bestes friends around even if you don't consider me one you made me to laugh and feel comfortable with your memes a lot and I truly liked your account and your memes the most maybe you don't know it but you were the one who actually gave me enough confidence to make memes myself too as I never had enough of that to share my memes and though people won't like them so thank you for making me feel good and smile and also giving me enough confidence too thanks for everything

@ocielismyadoptedson we had so much of fun times together and I liked talking to you a lot thanks for making me feel god and was a good friend to discuss with thanks for everything

@randomthoughts-andstuff thanks for all the supports and kind comments I will also never forget you thanks for everything

@mikaela-myangel-and-love we were new friends but even if it was short yet I felt comfortable around you the most so thank you for everything too

@rinislove-rinislife I really really liked your colorings so much thank you for them and making me enjoying them I will never forget it and thanks for everything

@totoia05 literary one of my closest friends around thank you for always keeping my company and for all god feelings and times you created for me I will never forget it till I am alive thank you for everything

@bigbrainbiology you were also so kind to me even if we didn't hae much contract yet I liked and enjoyed your arts a lot so thank you for them and generally thank you for everything

@winterserafu I really really liked your arts the most you can't even imagine how much I recieved happiness from them so thank you for making me feel like this I would never forget it and thanks for everything

@wintersoldier-barnes you were a dear and precious friend to me and although we didn't have much contraction yet I was always holding you dear and was worry for you I wish for you the bests ever and hope for you a great and full of happiness life wherever you are and thanks for everything

@shinyas-weapon I liked your memes the most thanks a lot for making me to laugh, have fun, smile and feel good with them thanks for everything

Sorry if these are other people around who were also nice to me but I forgot to tag them generally I love all of you who made me feel good even for a moment. Thanks a lot for everything.

And a general talk to anyone who wanna enter this fandom:

Please don't enter. This is the most sincere I ever said. If you are interested in this manga please just read it every month but try your best to not intreact with people at all specially if you are not a mikayuu or mika stan in general no don't get me wrong if you are a good writer, a good artist then share your fics, arts, manga coloring, edits and etc but please in no kind of conditions don't share your ideas about the story at all you'll just get hurt to the core some people around has no kind of morals and cares nothing about your feelings this outside so as the one who was around for about 4 years and had lots of funs ofc but recieved more than those lots of funs, hurt and insults and etc please accept this advice from me and keep your life here peaceful and safe nothing in this world doesn't deserve this too happen.

I won't delete my account here as this account contains Guren's manga which my team worked on it hard so I won't waste the times and energy they put in this but I'll leave and won't be around anymore.

So I know many will get happy over this and will even celebrate it which I congrats them for reaching to what they were after it personally but I just wanted to say this too that to those who did the worse to me and they know who they are so there's no need to name anyone, I just want you to know that I will just never forgive you and remember once you break a heart like this the exact same will happen for you, if not you then your child in the future, if not your child your grand child then so remember this that there's someone in this world who will never forgive you no matter what and unfortunatelly you won't have a chance to find them and apologize them when you'll feel sorry over it years after.