mikee: unfiltered

Friday is the most awaited day of every student because that means the week in school is over. But for us HUMSS student at Bataan Christian School, it is the most awaited day because we have a class in what we consider our “special” subject. Every Friday is like we our sharpening our critical thinking skills, the way we see things and situations, and understanding different aspects. It is all because of our one-of-a-kind teacher that we have.

When we first met our teacher, we are very excited and nervous at the same time. Both nervous and excited because she’s from the University of the Philippines. In the first part of our meetings, every time that she will going to ask some questions we are scared and tensed to answer it thinking that it will be wrong. But she taught us that there is no wrong in trying to answer, she accepts your answer and then she will correct it by discussing it in the class so that everyone will learn. I remember when she asked me a question and I could not get the right answer, she let me figure out the answer by myself while she asks questions that will lead me to the correct answer.

We encountered our first experience in reading numerous reading materials and writing multiple essays containing one thousand words in her subject. We only meet once a week that’s why our teacher gives us every week an essay to write. I and my classmates had sleepless nights just to finish those essays. It is very difficult but we never complain and somehow we always find the good in it.

This teacher taught us lessons that is not just written in a textbook. She taught us how to understand, serve, care, and love every person that we encounter in our everyday life. We learned that we always need to dig deeper in every situation. Being a HUMSS student is somehow depressing because others say that we do not have a future with it and it has a very small income. But when the world doesn’t believe in us, she was there lifting us up. I can say that she’s a big part why I am a better person today, and I am grateful and honored to be one of her students because she is one of those persons who has a genuine and pure heart.

The most important and special lesson that I have learned from her is that, not everything is about numbers and figures. Nothing can compare to the happiness and fulfillment of the heart that is achieved when serving other people.

Broken? Depressed? In pain? Alone? Searching? Crying? Pleading for a way out of the heartbreak? We have all been there.

It’s a particular feeling that none of us have ever wished for or dreamt of and yet, in this life of ours, we still pass it by.

Let me tell you a story:

You, the beautiful, confident, happy you, had been living your life day by day without worries. You’d wake up in the morning, eat breakfast, go to school, come home, do your homework, have dinner, read a book and go to bed. You lived a normal life. But somehow, you felt alone. You felt something was missing, as if there were an emptiness in you that hadn’t been filled.

Then, Love comes around with his dashing smile and says, “Hello beautiful.” You, on the other hand, turn a cold shoulder to this stranger who you feel is nothing but bad news. But then, he kept coming back. He made you feel wanted, happy, beautiful, and loved. Annoying as he may seem, that stranger became someone you missed, a person who you wanted to be with.

Until one day, Love said, “I love you.” He promised to take care of you, to make you happy, to adore you, to understand you and to love you no matter what. There and then you realized, you loved him, too. And so, it was no longer him and you. There became us. There became we. You no longer alone.

Days passed, you and Love were happy. You were better, together. It seemed like there was nothing you couldn’t do or anything you couldn’t face as long as Love was by your side. Because of Love, you felt as if an empty part of you had been filled. You felt complete, for once, because of Love.

But then, after a while, you and Love always fought. Turns out there were a lot of things that you disagreed upon, from music to food and countless other things. You had so many differences and that, for Love, became a problem. You tried to understand Love. You still put up with him because you loved him, even though, eventually, your disagreements turned into silences and cold shoulders. Nevertheless, you held on. You had hope that Love would stay true to the promises he made. You stayed. You put in an effort to try and make Love happy again.

Eventually, Love became his old self. He was sweet. He started smiling again. Everything seemed to be the way it was before. You, finally, thought that everything was okay.

Until one dreaded day, Love said he had enough. He said he didn’t love you anymore. Love said, “Good bye.”

You didn’t quite comprehend why he suddenly decided to leave. For all you know, everything was going well again.

You were clueless. You didn’t realize that Love had fallen out of love with you. You didn’t see that you were no longer the reason he was smiling. You didn’t see that Love didn’t really love you.

And so you ended up broken, depressed, in pain, alone, searching, crying and pleading for a way out of the heartbreak.

Now we’re back to your current situation. Yes, it is hard. It is painful. It is dreadful and at a point, yes, you feel that you would rather not exist.

NEWS FLASH: He is not worth ending your precious life! You have lived fine without him before and so will you now.

Moving on is not easy. It takes time. But it’s not the good bye that actually hurts us. It is the memories and the question of whether or not you weren’t enough for him.

Listen up!

You are beautiful. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. You don’t need a man to tell you that.

He is not worth crying over. It’s okay to cry at first. Go ahead and vent out that pain. But don’t make it a habit. Don’t ruin your pretty face in tears just because he couldn’t see how wonderful of a person you are. A real man will come and love you despite your differences and your flaws and he will accept you for who you are.

Accept the fact that he was not the right guy for you. Don’t waste your time on what if’s. He chose to leave and now you have to chose to move on.

Choose to be happy! He already hurt you by leaving. Will you let him ruin everything else that’s good in your life, too, by moping around in sadness? No! Rise up 100 times more beautiful than you were before. Believe me, he’s gonna regret even leaving you in the first place.

Don’t look for a new love. There are people who put enter a new relationship after heartbreak to forget the pain. This is such a big, NO! You can and will heal by yourself. Don’t drag someone else into the pain.

True love will find it’s way to you. At the right time, the right love will come and find you. Until then, establish yourself. Learn to live life happily by yourself. Enjoy being single! (*Take note: not everyone who’s alone is lonely)

Learn to love again. When the time comes, open yourself up. Trust again. Don’t let one bad relationship get in the way of what might possibly be the best one. :)

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