Mikey's bit

How do you tell a friend that they are making a mistake? Even though they think it's the right thing. Even worse, it makes them happy...

So earlier I questioned my wisdom about my decision to try and get away from my friend. She sure as hell reassured me tonight. The worst part is, she won't even notice my absence. I'll be hurting for a while to come.

I DO NOT OWN THIS

So, today I told a good friend that I don't want them come up and visit me. I did this because I feel like in a depressed state all I do is depend on them for attention and love. I have other friends, why should I reserve and give so much for so little in return from just her. We only become close when she needs me, we go for years without talking until something changes in her life and she comes to me asking for guidance, as i am several years her elder. 

So, when by pure chance I finally open up to someone, her of all people, she tells me she isn't in the mood. I don't think she realises how much effort and feeling I put into helping her when she got down but she sure as hell doesn't reciprocate it. 

Did I do the right thing? Telling her she can't come up and visit? Telling her that we only talk when she needs me. She replied saying that it's because shes busy, seeing irl friends and dating this guy who she's been messing with. But in the end...isn't that my point?

So for the past 2 years or so, i've been suffering from various degrees of depression. BUT it's all changing, i'm slowly but surely getting back into shape, I'm heading back to uni, I even have a bit of money! So, i started this tumblr to post not only things that interest me but to for somewhere i can post crap about how i'm trying to escape depression and so on! Hope you like random crap, because that should be my middle name!