Saudade

It’s been a year since we ended. I’m still taking a glimpse to the window of yesterday hoping to find some closure. We ended without knowing why, i didn’t know what’s behind it, where did we go wrong, we just ended. I wanna know why. I know, it’s not too late for this in order for me to keep moving forward and for us to set ourselves free. We’re both happy but i’m still longing for the reasons. I wanted to know why you chose to hurt and cheat on me. It keeps me awake every night why do you have to do it. I want to talk to you but something in me is trying to stop me, i’ve been dying to know but i don’t know if i’m ready to know it. I’m afraid that it will still affect me even though i’m already happy with someone now. I’m afraid that your reasons can still break my heart again.