thinking about that scene in the dragon republic when rin enters daji’s seal and it shows her what she wants the most, memories she can barely remember and people she’ll never have again, even if she didn’t know it at the time. she saw Masters Irjah and Jima, the two masters whose praise she’d craved her first year at Sinegard, whose classes she’d excelled at the most, Linguistics and Strategy. She saw Kesegi, who she would later sacrifice to rot in a cell, and Tutor Feyrik, whose fate would forever be left unknown, lost to her. Kitay, Altan, Ramsa, all of whom sacrificed their lives for her. And the heavy, heavy implication that they were all gathered for her wedding to Nezha. Because Nezha was the last person Rin loved who hadn’t yet appeared in her vision and his absence was too conspicuous. Because Altan had told her in that vision that he’d “never been too fond of [her fiancé] either,” and Nezha had been the only friend of Rin’s who Altan had never liked, had been paranoid and suspicious of, had told Rin to stop talking to, and had prevented her from dragging out of the fog. Daji’s seal had shown Rin what her subconscious had known and what she had refused to acknowledge (that she loved nezha even then), and what might have been possible in another life if history, the gods, and the whims of humans had not been so cruel.
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