midwest isolation

EVERYTHING I LOVE IS DEAD OR DYING

emptiness keeps me still where have you gone? i am lost in your light i am lost in the hurt we share

wish i could say it'd be the last time i'd feel like this the burning in my chest from others negligence finish me give me death i don't have the will to live like this

i talked to fucking god i looked him in the eyes i told him i'm in pain and he turned me away

far away from the place i feel safest i'm reaching out as i watch you leave you're abandoning me you're abandoning me

i was taught to hate myself before anything else

every night i lie asleep trying to wake up from this dream numb but i still feel it crawling under my skin i threw it all away but it still stays the same try and forget my name but it's something i just can't change i threw it all away but it still stays the same

you're not in this alone and you don't have to feel that you are we're what separates the heart from the heartless so we'll push forward regardless of the consequence we're what separates the heart from the heartless so we'll keep pushing regardless

this world doesn't fight you you fight yourself thinking we fail you you fail yourself

this is no longer indifference this is anger born from pain this is no longer indifference this is agony turning into hate

peace is found pain is rediscovered not all is lost, but not much is left the only way to survive is to hurt to let it take its course

i gnash and claw against the weakness in my veins and reject the narrow path that's laid out before me i bend the shape of my surroundings inflict my will on the world around me i hone myself into a weapon enlightenment through annihilation on a world that wants to crush me i inflict my will

and sing for all your friends and family sing for those who didn't survive but sing not for their final outcome sing a song of how they tried we live amidst a violent storm leaves us unsatisfied at best so fill your heart with what's important and be done with all the rest

i've been trying to find the last nail in the casket will i ever learn to forgive and forget? i tried to bury hatchet but it's buried deep, deep inside my back it's like pulling teeth trying to forget what you did to me the last nail in the casket lay it to rest it's like pulling teeth trying to forget what you took from me the last nail in the casket lay it to rest

there's no hope in an unclenched fist there's no end when you believe in this still beating still burning

Rachel Corrie February 7th, 2003

you could not bridge the gap between you and me some things are better left unsaid but i can't just smile nod my head when i should be screaming screaming at the sun so i waste my fucking time beating my head against brick fucking walls sharing words with you