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And like, if we peeled away all the bullshit and the knee-jerking and all the hang-ups, I think that’s the truth- it IS a nothingburger. The people who treated me poorly for it clearly had their own hang-ups regarding their own relationship with attraction, the people who don’t know how to treat people who don’t want to be involved with respect have their own social problems that that’s a symptom of, not the cause, and the societal stigma is just… made up.

Just. Stop it. Stop giving this thing more mythology than it deserves, we’re all just people, we’re all weird and particular and strange, and it’s fine! It’s normal and healthy to explore what makes you tick! Stop sleepwalking into a world where this fucking… puritan view of the world puts roots down again, stop sleepwalking into a world where you’re made to feel shame and feel othered and feel different for having some sliver of your greater whole focused on the sensual.

You have the right and the dignity to be allowed that! You don’t deserve to be treated like that’s all of what you are, to be made to feel ashamed of any of that by people who most certainly are like that too.

Because that’s the truth, isn’t it? We’re all kinky in some sense, we all have some sort of fixation- the sooner you stop giving something so small and so unimportant this kind of power over how fearfully you live your life, the sooner you can stop living a life defined by fear.

especially ones who have to act put-together to fit a specific image. it would be soooo embarrassing if others figured out that this cool, collected individual can’t hold their piss for a few hours; or if they can, they’re an absolute wreck.

they don’t show it. they can’t afford to put their persona to the side, so they’re stuck suffering through it all without being able to openly express it. if you pay closer attention, of course, you can see the slight tremble in their thighs, the sweat starting to form on their forehead, and the way their steps are faltering just slightly.

and if they were to have an accident? it would absolutely wreck their pride. they’d have to keep up this act like it’s not bothersome, they can handle anything! they don’t need help! they’re fine! obviously, it’s not a big deal.

(it most definitely is.)

Phoenix is frantically apologizing, meanwhile Miles feels bad, because he really wasn't trying to help Phoenix find a solution. he thought he was exaggerating, he didn't know it was actually that bad.

Costume party gets wild. 😰

Totally rushed this one because I'm super busy with lots of things.