what?

100 out of 100 on my Crim assignment,,, maybe I still got it,,,, TEAM!!! do you hear me,,,, maybe I still got it,,,,

I will be better i will have unshakable morals i will have drive and inclination i will be clever and interesting and witty i will have opinions and feelings i will laugh and make others laugh i will be a duck the way this emptiness will roll off my back i will make it not because I have will for a better future but because being this nothing all the time is not an option.

Dried yellow paint stuck on a carpet in a house you no longer live in. Walls adorned with effigies of gods you carried all through high school now afixed like all those never-ending mayflies. Boxes and boxes and boxes. An ugly green dress that you are hanging onto for your friends 21st, you keep reminiscing on the 8th. The t-shirt of your dad's who you haven't spoken to since the 1st of February at 7:58pm. Strip the sheets of your bed and replace them just in case you decide you want to come back. Remember when the end of summer felt like the end of the world. It was 13 years ago it was last August it is three months from now. More boxes. The same movie again and again and again. Cards, unpeeled stickers, train tickets, general paper waste. Keep the curtains strung back so the neighbors lights can come glancing in. Remember when leaving was all you wanted to do?