Midnight Obsidian

I have always had a plethora of strange experiences. No, I am not that kind of FTM person who has been knowing it through his whole life, but I could never fit in the girls' lot, and I would very often experience sensations, preferences and fantasies that made me think I must be out of my head.

Subtle signs, yes.

Learning that my experiences are very much common and well-known to all kinds of transmasculine people was extremely validating and affirming.

I have a quite long list of subtle - or not exactly subtle - signs, but I think I'll just write them down spontaneously, always the ones I recall at a certain time. Cannot really guarantee this to make sense or to be consistent.

Of course having a few experiences or attitudes like these ones cannot make one sure about them being some kind of transmasculine, but too many signs pointing at the same direction might make one stop and think for a while. Or, for a longer period of time.

Haven't done this for a while but I just need to. Feel like having a safe space where I can be open about my being transmasculine.

For this is what I am, and it took insanely much time for me to recognize it. There were certain subtle - or less subtle - signs through the years, signs I tried my best to ignore or oppress.