Magic is Something You Make.

When things get like this, I usually have a script. It wouldn’t matter ten years from now. It’s not as bad as you think it is. You’ll survive this. You’ve gone through worse. If there’s nothing you can do about it, focus on things you can actually work on. Don’t give up because of this, remember all the places you still want to visit. Food to taste, clothes to wear, things you want to experience. This is just temporary. It will be over soon. But that’s just it, isn’t it? Everything’s temporary. Nothing lasts. It will all be over soon. What’s the point

Going back to old habits. Buying things even though I know none of them, no matter how much I fill my room with, will ever make me happy. Happiness is a state of mind or whatever. Having no emotions is better than being happy. If you've never felt that high, you wouldn’t know what you’re missing.