“No, I don’t have the slightest desire to rewrite the past or history or whatever. What I’d like to rewrite is the present, here and now. But if you rewrote the past, obviously, the present would change, too. What we call the present is given shape by an accumulation of the past.” - Tengo from 1Q84 by Haruki Murakami. (I’ve been reading this book since 2017 and I still haven’t finished... it’s 2020 and Quarantined, I opened the book tonight.  Almost there though). HASHTAG what have I been doing all those years? Time to focus on myself more :) 

“You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.” - Eckhart Tolle

People are dying. I didn’t believe it until now. Covid-19 is no joke. Please stay home and take care of yourself. While I am worried about my income, the most thing I worry about is HEALTH. Without it, there’s no future. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cG-yBBwfcaI

"Grit is passion and perseverance for very long term goals. grit is having stamina. Sticking with future. Day and day out. Not just for a week nor month. But living life like a marathon." 

4th day of learning piano. It takes me about 3-6 seconds to find the right note. Very frustrating, but playing everyday for 1-2 hours. Step by Step... 

“And so when you have lost everything, no more roads, no direction, no fixed signs, no ground, no thoughts able to resist other thoughts, when you are lost, beside yourself, and you continue getting lost, when you become the panicky movement of getting lost, then, that’s when, where you are unwoven weft, flesh that lets strangeness come through, defenseless being, without resistance, without batten, without skin, inundated with otherness, it’s in these breathless times that writings traverse you, songs of an unheard-of purity flow through you, addressed to no one, they well up, surge forth, from the throats of your unknown inhabitants, these are the cries that death and life hurl in their combat.”