Mind Rough.

i fell in love with you and i’m the one that has to deal with that.

If you don’t go after what you want, you’ll never have it. If you don’t ask, the answer is always no. If you don’t step forward, you’re always in the same place.

Remember that everyone you meet is afraid of something, loves something and has lost something.

Do all the good you can. By all the means you can. In all the ways you can. In all the places you can. At all the times you can. To all the people you can. As long as ever you can.

In a video game, when you’ve reached an enemy, it means you’re going in the right direction, and the harder they hit, the more levels you go up. Keep that in mind as you go on in life.

Nowadays I walk over things I used to trip over.

Shit happens in life. What really matters is how we handle the bad moments. Don’t let it define you, keep reaching for your happiness.

I’m so proud of myself for every single decision I’ve made this year. From cutting people off to changing my priorities.

Well everything and everyone is a lesson. Im still glad that I have met the boys I have. Im still glad that I met the first boy because he showed me what it is to be cheated on and lied to. He showed me people dont always keep promises. The most wonderful person you could ever meet could also be the biggest dirtbag. He showed me what its like to be in public in his town and be looking around every corner to see if you see him. Just to see if maybe youll make eye contact with that boy and maybe he’ll see in your eyes how badly he hurt you. Im still glad that I have met the second boy, which I met about two weeks after the first boy broke my heart. We got into a relationship within a week of knowing each other, my first relationship to be exact. He showed me what its like to be needed and wanted. I mean everyone wants that, but he was too much. After about 5 days of dating, he was already hinting at telling me he loved me. It was all too fast. We hung out twice, both times we were at my house watching movies and sitting on my bed. The first time at my house, he had his arm around me and was holding my hand. Later that night when he was home and we were texting, he asked if u would date him. He sent another and said I mean we kinda are and then another text: I mean, we did hold hands. i said yes. And bam. My first relationship, two weeks after my first heartbreak with a boy I never dated. (we were still something though. We were ex-somethings) and about 5 days later he was being depressing in his texts talking about how nobody can make him feel important and how his friends treat him. This 16 year old was talking like a 5 year old (As usual.) I told him that I guess I’m not good enough to make him feel important. I could tell that him talking like this all the time was bringing me down. I was already in a bad place all through the summer. And also off and on throughout the year. I could tell he was making me bad again. I ended it with him that night. My first relationship- lasted around five days with an over obsessive boy who was making this relationship go VERY fast. He kept texting me and he wanted to know what he did wrong. I finally told him that he was taking things too fast. He kept texting me and I told him it was done. He replied with so are his chances with any girl. He made me feel bad. And when that happened, I knew I didnt belong with him. I didnt need his negativity in my life. I finally texted him back and said & told him that’s why I broke up with you. You have no confidence. He said well its true. And that was the end of that. This boy showed me what its like to be wanted and also what its like dating someone who seeks attention constantly and who also asks what do you like about me? And how much do you like me? As if he needed to be reminded every single time we spoke. He showed me what its like having to keep him happy all the time while it drained me. He showed me exactly who I don’t want to be with. The third boy has shown me what its like to be wanted but also not being too overprotective. He has shown me how great things can be. We arent dating. But Ive liked this boy for about 10 months now and things are finally taking shape. I’ve always talked with my friend about how I want to get the first boyfriend out of the way so then I can date whoever I want. People always ask who was your first boyfriend? Then never ask about your second, fifth, or eighth. So now my first boyfriend is out of the way and my first heartbreak (the first boy) is done, I guess I can get started on living a little. This third boy likes me and I like him. Its been about two days since I broke up with the second boy, but I can already tell Im falling hard for the third boy. I have been for quite a while but now Im not denying the feeling anymore. Everyone is a lesson. At the time the lesson may seem like a bad lesson, but in the end, theyre all good. They all teach you and help you grow. I am not the same person as I was 2 months and 1 week ago when I first met the first boy. I am stronger, smarter, and I know exactly what I want and need in my life right now. Everyone is a lesson, just pick and choose who you want to change you.

People love you until they don’t need you anymore.

The best advice I’ve ever received: ‘no one else knows what they are doing either.’

Someone once told me that none of us are actually afraid of the dark; we’re scared of what it conceals from us. We’re afraid of having something with the potential to hurt us standing right before our eyes and not registering it as a threat. People can be like that too.