Deep Sh*t

I broke up with you because I didn’t felt like myself anymore. Now I really miss you. But I don’t know if I miss you or just your presence. I really did Iove you but I didn’t know if you loved me. I knew from the start it would be this hard but I didn’t know that it would be mentally draining. I really loved you Tammy. Just a little heart broken now. Hoping this pain would go away. 3 Years of memories and laughter. Trying to get over you.

What I’m scared of the most. Is that if it’s all true. I’m worried that it’s true. Why can’t you just tell me.

I love my girlfriend. But sometimes you gotta wish we were Normal.

Still talking to tammy but missing yen. Shit. Life is a mess.

Gee. Idk it’s just been tough.

The problem is that i don’t want to be vulnerable to her until I know there is something. I don’t want to get hurt again.

Damn. I really like talking to her but talk about what though. She makes me forget about all of the shitty shit going on.

Damn. It shows how our friendship is. Sigh. I tried.

Is it wrong that I like talking to her? I mean it’s innocent talking but I think she is really cute. Goodness but sometimes I don’t know what to say. I think she is just cute

Maybe this time I’ll stop loving you and stop fighting for you. And finally let you go