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I have finally let him go. I feel so cheated. I felt like he only loved me at the surface. But i know for a fact that he loved me with all that he can. He did things that I know is his way of showing me his love. But why is it that he had to wait for me? Why didn't he just tell me to let go? I never wanted this relationship to end. I wanted it to last. Why did it have to end?

Despite the ending Lord, I still wish for him to come back. I wish he finds his way home to me. Lord, help him and I through this rough patch for him, despite him "being happy" I love him so much Lord. I devoted mylast 9 years to him. You know that. You know how much I prayed for this. I may have taken it for granted but Lord, I will continuously pray for the continuation of our story.

i know i am a bit of a mess right now Lord, but please help us.

Amen.

Attaching his response to my very lengthy message. It seemed to hollow and empty. Felt like he did not love me. But I hope this was all in my mind.

Thanks for giving me another chance. I am more than willing to show you that I have been better. That I could do better for us. I hope you show me also that you are willing to try. I can't wait for a lifetime more to be with you. Right now we both feel uncertain with our decision but I know this is gonna be worth it. I love you soso much love! I hope you still have a little bit of love left for me too. And from there let us make it grow.

Love,

bb, babi, love,

Hello. Sunday na sunday ginagambala kita. hehe Lord, ibigay mo na po ito sa akin. Minsan lang ako humiling and I always do my part to get it. Kita mo naman dito gaano ko katagal pinagdasal ito. SIya lang gusto ko makasama habambuhay. Please enlighten him. Please give him clarity. Please let him give us another chance. Lord, guide us and our relationship. This is a very trying time, I know. I love him so much, Lord, it's hurting me to be in this situation.