Chasing Felicity

Hello uaenas,

I’m on the plane now.

I woke up from a nap and everyone else is sleeping. There’s still four hours left for the flight. I had a pretty good sleep on the plane so my condition is good and perhaps because I’m in mid-air, I’m feeling emotional and opened my memo pad (T/L note: notepad app) to write a letter to uaenas.

Including myself, our uaenas would have returned to their one-two (T/L note: routine) daily lives after a very festival-like weekend.. (some of us may still have our souls wandering about Jamsil 😌)

How is IU doing? What’s she thinking about now that the concert is over? Is she happy? Sad?

I thought some of you might be curious about that keke so I decided to share with uaenas my epilogue for a concert after 3 years.

What I regretted the most was that I wasn’t able to talk to uaenas much because the concert runtime was a bit shorter than my usual concerts. I wanted to see the audiences’ faces a bit more and take my time to ask everyone how things are, but it felt short compared to the long wait right? 🥲 ( I even thought it would be fun to have a talk concert to just exchange conversations with uaenas for 2 hours.)

Despite the hot weather, everyone cheered hard beneath their masks and sang along and even if they looked a little tired, made eye contact with me with smiling expressions like they were about to cry, as if we made a promise and that was very very very veryyyyy beautiful to me, I was so so so touched and even now, I really really really want to see that again!!

I felt like your expressions were telling me, “I’m just here to see you. It’s great for us to be here together. You don’t need to try too hard,”

so I really did my best 🔥🔥😡🔥🔥keke

That’s something I wanted to tell the audience too. Ah as I’m writing this, is this the reason why all of you cheered so hard? 🫢 Trying to be considerate towards each other actually stimulated (me) further?? 🫢🫢kekeke It was the best, seriously. Thank you for showing the best audience manners. Also, I’m not just saying for the sake of saying this, but all of you sing so well… it’s crazy… That’s really the pride of my concert! Perfect gender ratio, perfect audience sing-along.. You’re going to even harmonise with each other next time right.. 🥹

Ah shall I tell you something really amazing? Among all my concerts, I suffered the least!! backlash from this concert.

There’s almost no feeling of emptiness or loneliness. Rare, isn’t it? It was the biggest scale concert that I had prepared for the longest time. But it’s not like I feel refreshed or relieved either.. It just feels like I came back from a really exciting amusement park last weekend? “I’ve got to go there again next time~~ My friends enjoyed it too, ah it was really fun😙” that sort of feeling keke Of course, from Monday to Tuesday, I was totally drained. 🫠

I spent two days in a dreamy state no matter how much I slept and it felt like I wasn’t getting hydrated enough no matter how much I drank. On Wednesday, I came back to my senses and read some concert reviews and news articles that felt awesome, the fancams that some people risked being thrown out of the concert hall to film.. actually filming is not allowed, though honestly I had a look at some of the very well taken fancams (But Edam is working hard to edit some video.. coughcoughclipbeuraycough nexxxxtttweektheysaidsomethingwouldbeoutclipcough..

The Good Day stage looks honestly stunning in 4K video though… I hope it survives (the editing process) 🥺)

For this concert in particular, I saw many reviews saying, “I was really happy.” Seeing the traces one by one left behind from the most magnificent weekend in my life, rather than feeling empty and sad, I myself was surprised by how I was honestly feeling happy, that’s how absolutely happy I felt!! 🥹

I was glad that my family (especially my dad), people close to me and the staff who have been there with me throughout almost all my concerts were very satisfied with the outcome and many people said the fanchants, audience singing and lightsticks were amazing too, which made me feel very!! proud🐥

As I was preparing for the concert, it made me feel particularly small, so I was really worried that I would feel empty after the concert.. but I felt like all the gaps were filled up after that instead. The same goes for my confidence!

I’ve mentioned it a few times, but this concert is really a concert that really a lot of people worked hard for.

During the wrap-up party after the concert, many people cried.

Those who believed in me and suggested the Seoul Olympic Stadium concert venue at the start, the production team with a greater ambition than me and turned many wishes into reality, my band, dancers and orchestra members that I exchange support with by eye contact, without moving our lips, Edamies who worked overtime for two months without complaint to prepare the greatest concert atmosphere of all time, our music director and console team who find ways no matter what to protect my self-esteem whenever I lose confidence, my talented hair makeup and styling team lightning quick fingers and magic touch, my security team that breaks into a sweat to give their full material and emotional support beyond their duties and the concert staff running around to ensure that the show goes smoothly whether in the rain or sun..

Perhaps they even felt more pressure than me as they made preparations. Everyone else was crying except me..🥹

It was not just the love I received from the audience on the concert day, but as I was preparing for the concert that I really felt the consideration and love that I have been receiving, which made me feel sorry and grateful and emotional.

That’s why even after the concert, there’s no way for emptiness to make it’s way into me, I’m in a densely filled and fulfilled state!! 🔥

Ah I spent two hours typing this..!

I’ll continue after having some of the inflight meal!!

(I had the braised mackerel.

And I had some ramen just now too!

My appetite is coming back!!🔥🔥🔥)

Ah now that I’ve had my meal, we’re almost reaching Italy.

I’m lucky that my schedule allows me to spend a few more days in Italy with my family after my activities in Italy. I’ll share any pretty pictures I manage to take while in Italy!!

I’ve got to upload this post the moment I reach. It’s late at night now in Korea, so most of you are asleep, so have a good sleep and I hope you enjoy reading this post later on your way to work or to school. Those who are still awake, please go to bed after reading this post. 😌😌

During my 30th anniversary concert in future, we would gather and be like, “Back then! We were crazy~”, “I mean, 40,000 people sang Love Poem together then keke” and I think we made some great memories there.

Our heroic exploits and love stories

We’re collecting them well right? 🔥

I think many uaenas would be having post concert withdrawal symptoms, meeting for a short time after such a long wait.

As promised during the concert, our next meeting won’t take as long, so don’t feel too sad. Until the day we meet again, take care of yourself ok?!

Thanks so much, uaena

I’ll be back soon!!

I’m going into transit now.

My fireflies, please have a peaceful night ❤️