Double Edged Truth

I'm amazing

I'm smart

I'm funny

I'm one of the best friends you could ever want.

I have ears when you need to talk.

My words have lifted your spirit and made you smile

I have arms to hug and cuddle when you are down.

You don't see how great I can be.

One day I am sure you will.

I will still be here for you when you do.

I'll always be there.

If you knew how much I want to see you

If you could know what it's like to be ignored

If you counted the the times I tried

If you would understand how I feel

When I told you it was not love and you don't believe

Having no one want to spend time with you

Spending every moment alone, no friends

Not knowing how to fix this

Being lost in your own thoughts

I don't know who I am

Where am I in life

No one knows me, wants to know me

No one I can speak to

Here I am just alone in a sea of people

Pretending to know what to do

Going through the motions

I'm lost, unwanted and ignored

Is it time to go again?

Should I just run?

I still love Her and She loves me.

Yet in my heart love another love grows.

I hide my feelings so You cant see.

I could be with You as long as She knows.

What do I do with this twisted heart.

Can I do what it wants me to do.

I need you in my life I don't wish to part.

Just Your smile warms me through and through.

How many times I wish I we had just kissed.

Even though I feel You're not attracted to me.

Such an act would make You pissed.

You'd kick me out and from my life You would flee.

So here I write my feelings on this place.

Somewhere where You and She will never look.

Because I have feelings I can't express face to face.

If I were asked I would lay the truth out like a book.

Until that day I will try to keep You near.

She will still stay at my side.

My heart is big with room enough for two in here.