lucky one!

Ever read so much fanfiction about a character or pairing that you literally forget what happened to them in canon? 

Sometimes that’s the goal.

Sometimes that’s the goal.

Yall ever procrastinate sleeping? Like you should be asleep and you want to but you just.. keep doing more things for no reason?

while we’re talking about mental health, i’ve shared this before but i’ve had 3 white psychologists and all of them and i mean all of them did not take my experiences with racism seriously. it wasn’t until i got to my current psych (who is a woc) that i felt validated in my fears and anxieties. my white psychs felt that my fear surrounding being a black woman was unfounded, ridiculous, and hypersensitive. one of them even suggested that i might have a psychosis that made me believe i was being persecuted. i left after that, but it still made me think to myself, “well maybe i am making it all up. a woman who went through school and is knowledgable said i might be making it up, so maybe i am.” i have no idea how setback i am because of these women, where i would be if i could actually address the experiences i had without feeling like it was fake. people need to know the experiences people of color, especially black people, have in the mental health care system. it can be incredibly demeaning and discouraging to engage in at the best of times and deadly at worst.

since this post is making some rounds, i have to say y’all need to stop making comparisons with sexuality and gender like….right now. this is explicitly about race, this is me saying my experience as a black person in the mental health care system, ignoring all other aspects of myself, you know why? because even though i had psychs that weren’t lgbt affirming (or even friendly) my race was still the biggest factor in my miserable experiences. like i get that you’re trying to make a comparison to show like solidarity or whatever but don’t do this on my post please