sun//eater

my, my, those eyes like fire I'm a winged insect you're a funeral pyre

when did it end? all the enjoyment I'm sad again, don't tell my boyfriend it's not what he's made for

and I'm not here to be the savior you long for only the one you don't

when we met I could see dark signs alarm bells in your eyes

and I miss the man I was the moment we left off and I hate who I have become every time I wake up (I might break and bend to my basic need to be loved and close to somebody)

I used to float now I just fall down I used to know but I'm not sure now what was I made for

mirror talk, fake love but I'll take a pound of your flesh before you take a piece of my pay stub

my, my, those eyes like fire I'm a winged insect, you're a funeral pyre come now, bite through these wires I'm in waking hell and the gods grow tired reset my patient violence along both lines of a pathway higher grow back your sharpest teeth, you know my desire I will travel far beyond the path of reason take me back to Eden

oh, let's talk about chemistry 'cause I'm dying to melt through to the heart of her molecules till the particles part like holy water if anything she's an undiscovered element either born in hell or heaven-sent either way I'm into it

it's hard to lose and wonder why I have been waiting my whole life for pressure in increments like a slow-moving coup memories dissident when I am holding you

think I forgot how to be happy something I'm not but something I can be something I wait for something I'm made for

show me those pretty white jaws show me where the delicate stops show me what you've lost and why you're always taking it slow show me all the wounds you've got and show me love

and as the earth runs to the ground oh, girl, it's you that I lie with as the atom bomb locks in oh, it's you I watch TV with as the world, as the world caves in

and you pray for someone to come in time (they don't come to you) to keep you sane till the morning lights (they don't come to you) and you pray for someone to hold you tight (no one will sail through these waters for your black cold eyes) and keep you safe till the morning lights (and no one will pick up the pieces of your empty heart) they don't come to you they don't come

I'll try not to starve myself just because you're mad at me and I'll be in denial for at least a little while what about the plans we made?

what if it happened to you on a different day?

I'm afraid I'll go to heaven that's why I'm hoping that I'm right my biggest fear ain't no red Devil it's being near you people all the time