The Innermost Being of Me

之前逼着我delete twitter, 微博, 现在连fb都要限制我是吗？你到底以为你自己是谁啊？ – Read on Path.

Today's joined company lou sang dinner...first time know that what is 如坐针毡...why now ady 20 century and ppl still so care on what high n low position difference..?aren't everyone the same..?why still got you high class I low class n so on...really ridiculous... – Read on Path.

明天会不会更好呢？希望吧。 – View on Path.

心若倦了，泪也干了。 这不是歌词，这是我现在的心情。

刚刚才和好几个小时，就因为我不小心睡了一个小时，结果被骂的狗血淋头。到底从几时开始我变得那么懦弱了？ – Read on Path.

My dream is still my dream...i waited for this cadet pilot for years n now its finally here...and my eye and my heart dont let me pass first medical...how cruel the world is... – View on Path.

不懂从几时开始，吵架成为了家常便饭。但每次吵架后，泪还是会流，心还是会酸，最后还是会选择原谅。一开始你发我脾气，我可以控制着我的情绪，可我也有我的底线。一旦我没法再忍，一旦我爆发了就别希望我还会用平常的语气跟你聊。等我心伤完了，气消完了再说吧… – Read on Path.

對你傾訴，是真的以為妳能給我一點慰藉。我還從來沒想過，妳會轉個彎罵我活該，哈哈，真可笑。對啊，就是我可笑，我活該，活該我無端端找他媽的慰藉，弄得一身傷。我還要厚著臉皮要留下來陪你，把妳趕我的話當耳邊風。最後，還是被妳趕。對啦，就是我活該，活該我裝什麼懦弱，求什麼同情，現在搞得遍體鱗傷都是我活該。而我今天在這兒發誓我再也不要顯現出我的懦弱了，再也不會了！ – Read on Path.

懦弱很简单，坚强很困难。 – Read on Path.

今天去逛街，选购姐结婚全家福要用到的晚装。与家人逛了半天，在与闺蜜逛了半天，感觉棒棒哒！😊 – Read on Path.

Almost eveytime argue also will tear...I'm asking am I able to have time to get home for dinner...but why u straight away say cancel tomorrow leh..?n say if next time wan go home dinner don't so last minute tell u...I'm really asking am I able only wo...if no then I can accompany u also ma...why once I ask this question u will say cancel tomorrow's outing and we try to meet less frequently...does it matter on my question..?u say u think for me...ya...maybe if u really think for me...u will know that I wanna balance both...instead of not meeting u and meet u once a month...u always tell me u always wanting to meet me but I ignore u and she ignore others all those who wan to meet her desperately...it's sounds like I'm the bad girl who don't let u see all ur fren that wanted to meet u so much...I would like to say sry to ur fren...goodnight...

Memories in HangZhou...20150824-20150829...

Hahaha my beloved kie kie with duckie mouth...Ahahahaha!!!!

Today I went to a cafe with my friend. Then when de drink is served by the waitress, I would like to take a photo of the drinks together with our table number (a can put on the table with logo of the cafe). However, she take over the can and don't return back to me when I'm ready to take the picture. I tried to grab back the can, but she don't let and lastly I'm the one who giving in and totally give up on snapping photo. Awhile later, I no talk and she say she is gonna leave. I'm like who is the one who playing around and angry now? Isn't that I'm the one who should be angry? Then I'm using my least and limited good temper to ask her to sit down. I wonder why? After sometime, she say it's because she don't wan me to disturb my sis by sending her photo when she is dating with her boy friend. Ok, but this is how our sisters communicate. So conclusion here is, I'm going to think and reconsider if I wan to take photo when I'm eat with her as she seems like cannot accept that I took de food porn before I eat.

2 days before, i went to SDMC n look for cardiologist, I had done ECG, X-Ray, ECHO for my heart investigation. After all these done, Dr measured my heart rate again and told that all my investigation report is normal, but why are my heart beat still fast. He said my heart rate reach 110++ at resting state. He couldn't find any reason, just told that it must be something trigger it but it may not cause any dangerous. Hmmm, it sounds good. End up, he had gave me a medicine to slower down my heart rate. At the same time, he requested me to have a full blood test checkup and bring the result back to him in 2 weeks time, while my medicine should have to be finish at that time. He said he may read the report and check my heart rate again after 2 weeks medication, see whether it turns better. So, let's look forward.

I don't talk much as I feel that talk much means hurt more...our mouth is a weapon... I don't like to go near to someone as I feel that when u go nearer u care more but perhaps in their eyes, ur caring will be twisted to another way round, they think that u r not care them, u just need to chase them because of ur business, it's hurt badly and I don't like the feeling... I like to isolate from human is because I feel that human is scary... I choose to walk out a bit, when u feel their good, out of sudden, they will put a knife to your heart... Ur caring makes them feel annoying... Ok I won't care anymore...what u want to do or say I couldn't control...as u say, I will just let it be...

My heart problem is more n more serious..?i went and see doc and told him my problem but the doc say it's just fast...I requested to have the RECG...n the test run for few seconds which the problem did not show out within that few seconds...being told by doc that my heart very normal...just abit fast...I did tell him that it makes me feel annoying during the skip beat and de strong beat...I also told him this situation maintain for weeks non stop...he told me RECG shows no skip beat and its normal...why he told me it's normal when I feel uncomfortable with it..?TT