Juliet

Don’t get me wrong, I understand the reason people were angry. But you can be angry and call someone out in a way that will make their side believable or your side believable. If a few people that were calling her out had approached it differently, it wouldn’t have taken multiple actions on Mack’s side to convince people. They could’ve been convinced much sooner.  When I first heard about Mack being a racist, I saw it from her point of view because I was following her on Twitter. The perma-paywallers that were doxxing others had already been harassing those in the community to try and silence them. So when I first saw her post about people “lying” about her, I figured it was probably someone mad she was outing them. Her and I had even talked privately a day or two before (whatever day I made my first blog) she gave us her “grand exit”. That was when she told me that the most harassment was coming from tumblr. I didn’t use tumblr because this place is more toxic than Twitter, somehow. I didn’t want to defend her and be wrong about it, so I looked her up on tumblr and on twitter. I searched her name and saw posts about her. The issue is that I saw extremely immature posts when I looked it up. I saw accounts made with different names like “Mackisracist” and “jumpoffabridge” that were dedicated to bullying her. I know the people who were trying to spread awareness about her hate when they’re being told they were bullying her but that’s exactly what it was. Bullying. Just because she was a bad person doesn’t mean it isn’t considered bullying. And yes I know the accounts said they wanted to get the truth out there about her, but all it looked like was people harassing, bullying and mass reporting her which in return made it that much easier for her to manipulate anyone following her into believing she was the true victim. Then anyone against her would attack anyone that didn’t believe she was racist. Instead of directing them to evidence of her behavior, they were attacking anyone that still believed Mack. And the only proof I saw (at the time)about her was cropped screenshots from private messages. So when she said the screenshots were fake, it seemed plausible. People that were being immature and clearly hated Mack, and showed proof, didn’t appear to be reputable sources. Once people started to get petty because of their anger towards her, anything they said she could easily twist to make herself look like the victim.  If you were an outsider looking in and you saw her posts before anyone else that was calling her out, it looked like she was this poor me victim and they were these hateful aggressive people.  Even after she left and before I read all the screenshots from her goodbye post... I saw someone call her a “disgusting bitch”.  But after all that I was directed to actual proof of her behavior and then I fully read her last tumblr post and I knew that I had been wrong and she was what everyone was claiming. But my opinion on some of the individuals that were calling her out has not changed.  I saw people getting harassed because of Mack, to then in return harass mack as if that made it “okay”. Literally the excuse for how people treated Mack was “It’s okay if she does it but not me?”. No, it’s not okay if she does it. It’s also not okay if you do it.  There’s a lot of victim mentality in this community. A lot of people weaponizing suicide. The whole thing looked like a contest on who could push who over the edge first. It’s sickening and immature. I grew up without a mother because of suicide, I know what it feels like to lose someone because they took their own life, I know how it feels to blame yourself over it even if it’s not your fault.. and the fact people kept using suicide as a way to garner sympathy and guilt trip others is so, so morally wrong. And not being able to see that is childish. Especially if some people out there truly did want to harm themselves because of harassment due to Mack then you’d know from personal experience what your own hate and harassment could cause someone to feel in return.  And the truth is, you cannot force anyone to feel bad for you if they don’t want to. If you think telling others that you’ll hurt yourself is a way to make them feel bad and stop harassing you, then you’re wrong. The people who would be most impacted by that decision, would be people in your personal life that truly love you. Not strangers on the internet. It’s rare for someone bullying you to actually be impacted by that. It’s more common for them to realize their words affected you like they had wanted, maybe they’ll feel bad, but eventually they’ll forget about that person they were bullying. So, using that as a way to guilt someone or trying to get sympathy is immature. If you or anyone you know truly does want to hurt themselves, have them call 988 or even text it, it’s the Suicide Hotline. If you aren’t in America then google what hotline you can call and please seek help.   As for myself being accused of not respecting someone’s pronouns, that’s just ridiculous. Not even worth arguing about it but in case it puts your mind at ease, I will. I did not once misgender the user that claims I am “transphobic”. I referred to them by their username or I said they/them. Because, they never stated what they wanted to be called. Only what they didn’t want to be called. So, even though I don’t agree with things they have said or the way they behave, I made sure to not call them she/he. If you want someone to call you the correct pronouns then tell someone the correct pronoun to call you.  I’m not going to put down the username of the one I’m talking about because 1. last time I did call them by their username(to prevent misgendering them) they were upset about that as well and said it “wasn’t their name”. 2. because I’m not trying to send hate to anyone I’m talking about.  My conclusion is that everyone I’m talking about seems to be narcissists. Everyone wants to make sure they have the last word. And I’m speaking about 4 of you. Mack, someone who speaks on her behalf often and the 2 other users who were very vocal about how they felt about mack and her friend. All of you seem to want to be able to have the last word, making sure you have some edgy comeback. Making sure you’re “quirky” with your “comebacks” and think you’re better than everyone you speak to and everyone you talk about. And hey, maybe you all are better than the rest of us. And all of you can go ahead and comment on anything I’ve said here, because I know none of you can resist it. I’m sure it’ll be so edgy and since you can’t resist having the last word you’ll be happy to know I have no plans on responding to anything any of you say.  To the people that send me dms with screenshots from the users that blocked me and bring me up, I appreciate you trying to “clue me in” on what’s being said about me but I genuinely don’t care. If someone has me blocked then they have me blocked and I don’t need to interact with them. Plus, they’re the ones that want the last word so let them have it. They can’t have the last word if they don’t block me. That’d risk the chance of me responding, of course.  I also did see the post assuming that I am an alt account for Mack and her friend and um, sure. Your proof is kind of not proof, since you made claims I haven’t been “online” since Mack left. Which isn’t true. I have been “online” but also why do you have me blocked if you’re checking up on my account? seems counter productive. But also even if we were all the same account, now what? If you want them to leave you alone, I genuinely suggest to stop bringing them up, because as long as you do, they’ll keep talking about you as well.  anyways I just haven’t posted because well tumblr is a weird place and everyone wants to fight about everything that’s said on here.  To end this long as blog- Don’t send any hate, harassment or whatever else to anyone I’ve spoken about. Again, it’s why I avoided putting out usernames. I don’t want to send hate to anyone here. No one needs to be bullied, stalked, harassed, called names etc. I honestly want to be done with all of it. It’s all petty and immature and not worth any more of my time extra time.  If you want to talk about paywallers then that’s fine, but if it has to do with this other drama I no longer will be commenting on it.