Need Drugz

I'm so done with this, I wanna be free

I don't trust myself to keep myself alive

How do I get a sense of identity when I have nothing of my own I don't have a life I just was putting my life together then I ran away with some side and now I'm probably gonna have to leave him but I used to have my own apartment, job, home town, better mental health, friends now ??? I have nothing again the universe seems to love playing this game with me

I'm at a crossroad in my marriage right now. He's being so abusive to me emotionally and all I can think about is the man I once knew. I've given my all, more than I have to anyone in my life. And I'm faced with the decision that can't be taken back. So..... I'm eating my brains out and chain smoking cigarettes

Why are all meth heads such jealous mother fuckers

BPD means feeling everything and nothing. Superficial and extremely deep. More empathy than most yet low empathy. Giving your all to those you love yet isolating from them with a cold shoulder. Not sure who is me

Anyone else too painfully aware of the illogical thought patterns powerless to reason through the nonsense.