Mental Space

This week hasn’t been as bad as last week but I am looking forward to getting into December and putting up my Christmas decorations. I’m not in the festive mood yet but I’m hoping I will be when I start getting the tree out etc! I am grateful that: My boss at the airport expressed confidence in my abilities to be in charge if I wanted to be, which I don’t at the moment, but it’s nice to know…

The week has been much like other weeks, all this time working at the airport is taking its toll, the calorie restriction isn’t helping my mood but I have an even longer stint to look forward to starting January! I am grateful that: I have my health! I was struck with the bug from hell in the early hours of Friday morning. Severe stomach pains, vomiting, and uncontrollable shaking! Thankfully…

It has been a difficult week of self-control but also a very revealing week as I have really shown myself what I’m made of! I just need to keep going a little longer and I think I will finally be happy with myself. I am grateful that: I have found an immense amount of strength to stick to a strict calorie deficit and have lost quite a bit of weight for my effort. My aim is to put in a massive…

It’s been a good week, I’ve been enjoying some days off and the weather has been kind so far on plane duty. I am grateful that: The strict diet I’m on is working, I’m seeing promising changes. I’ve got a long way to go but I’m confident I can stick to it until Christmas! I’ve never felt so determined. I had a few days of peaceful rest before starting a 5 week slog on the plane. Of course that…

It’s not been too bad a week relatively speaking. I’ve been tense for some reason and have had several brutal headaches but I’ve still managed to enjoy my hobbies. I am grateful that: My ps5 arrived intact, quicker than expected and in perfect working order. I’ve been playing it as much as I can since it arrived on Monday but work keeps getting in the way! I finally have a bit of time off…

The week is vastly improved from last week. For me, October was supposed to be my month of singular focus to get a good head start on getting to, maybe even achieving my weight loss goal before Christmas (and then undo it all in 2 weeks!). Instead it’s been a struggle just to keep the trains running on time, so-to-speak! I am grateful that: I found, by pure chance a used PS5 for sale on Ebay…

Looking back on this week has been tough. I’ve had the week off work that I needed and it did help but not nearly enough. I feel somewhere between depressed/angry and hollow. I have tried forcing myself to power though moods like this and it’s always led to more problems down the line. I have no choice but to get back on a healing journey! I am grateful that: I have my car back and my dad has…

It’s not been much of a week to be honest, my head is not in the driving seat, my mood has been pretty low which has lead me to binge but there’s nothing in the house to satisfy a craving so it’s all been pretty pointless! I am grateful that: The boat came in yesterday, our ferry last week was cancelled and my car was stuck in town. I’m really glad that it’s finally back on island and we’ve…

Well it has been a difficult week and I’m not going to find very many things to be grateful for, fair warning. I came home from my holiday on Tuesday night, my folks, who had been looking after my cat, said that she had been in poor shape and it might be time to speak to a vet. I booked an emergency appointment when the three of us were in town on Wednesday. Thursday morning, mum and I (there…

I think the theme of this week has been organisation. It certainly hasn’t been about weight loss, I haven’t been tracking my calories and I’ve almost certainly been overeating, I’ll be overeating during my holiday as well but they say you need to have a week off from dieting every now and then. Well I was feeling a bit burnt out this month, I figured out why – I was seeing progress and I was…

It’s been a mixed week, but I would say more good than bad. In fact it’s been more settling than chaotic, like the pieces of the foundation I’ve built were tested and yes, they rocked a bit, but the weak points in who and what I’m becoming/want to be have been shored up and are stronger than ever. I am grateful that: Despite a few set backs in this strict diet this week, I am understanding why…

I have been incredibly busy this week, in fact I’ve barely stopped! I have been tidying, organising, and planning for next year. I intend to try and grow fruit and some veg next year so I have completely changed the layout of the greenhouse to provide space for the bigger pots the trees will need. It has been a long time since I’ve had the energy and will to put so much effort into anything at…

It’s been a good week, relatively speaking. I’ve found my inner focus, my inner peace. I think I’m finally as complete as I’m going to be. This week has been a question as to whether I’ve finally turned a corner, and I believe the answer is yes! I am grateful that: I believe I have finally got my cravings under control. I have been strict to my diet this past week, strict with my workouts and…

It’s been a decent week. I brought home a Chinese takeaway from town when I came home from my holiday so that night and the following night the folks and I enjoyed that. I also enjoyed a nice lunch and brought home some chocolate from fire training on Wednesday but since Thursday I’ve been strict and focussed. That’s really good, I plan to stay strict until I go into town again at the end of next…

It’s been a really good, relaxing week, my willpower on the junk food has suffered a bit but I’ll tighten the belt again when I get home. Everything on this holiday has gone smoothly and I have exceeded my own expectations, which isn’t half bad! I am grateful that: I did manage to do the first section of the pilgrimage walk I wanted to do and most importantly, I completed the walk back! The…

It hasn’t really been much of an exciting week, the weather has been pretty crap. We had a storm blow in and caused a bit of damage to a few properties, not mine or my parent’s but my abuser did suffer a bit of damage, not enough to be much of a problem but it’s a little bit of karma. I’ve been working all week and see-sawing around what I want to be able to do to get to my goal body composition…