[Refuge]

you are doing your best in a genuinely complicated world, and that counts. forgive yourself for the rest

i stop fighting myself and start supporting myself

Actually no how the fuck is it august

Happy “how the fuck is it august” to those who celebrate!

I just want to sit in front of the ocean for a little while and listen to my comfort playlist.

you have permission to pick that 2 year old "abandoned" project back up. it's not mad at you for setting it aside. and maybe time and distance have helped ease or erase the things that made you put it down in the first place.

oh. turns out following an arbitrary set of rules i made up and imposed on myself isn’t really necessary. i can just do things in whatever way i can

there is no perfectly correct way of doing anything. you might as well try to find a way to get things done instead of trying to push yourself into doing them as perfectly as you wanted to

Fascinating how what's considered feminine and what's considered masculine can change over time. The rebranding of being a horse girl into being a stereotypical feminine girly trait needs to be studied.

Look at classic children's novels. As recently as the 50s and early 60s, being obsessed with horses as a girl was depicted as strange and tomboyish, and the very concept of being obsessed with horses from early childhood and loving toy horses and desperately wanting your own horse being a "little girl thing" and not a "little boy thing" would send someone from the 1800s and earlier into a coma.

There's maybe a point to be made here somewhere about how when keeping and riding horses stopped being necessary to the functioning of society and became a more "frivolous" thing, it was rapidly rebranded as silly and girly and for women, but what do I know.

fantasizing about you fantasizing about me

If it’s not this…it’s not it.

At a certain point in every woman’s life she needs to disappear from the lives of everyone she knows and do her own thing because otherwise she would go crazy