it's a way we had over here with living with ourselves. we cut 'em in half with a machine gun and give 'em a band-aid. it was a lie. and the more I saw them, the more I hated lies.

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you know wot im gonna say owo -

but almost certainly his whole thing with sonya. it's been a while since i've written it all but i always headcanon'd that they'd once had a thing. that something existed between them when he posed as part of her operation, ending with him entirely betraying her and the two of them coming to despise one another forever since. although kano acts outwardly antagonistic / cruel toward her, i imagine it stems a lot from his own regret. you know - she's the 'one that got away' and it's entirely due to his own actions. the man only has himself to blame for everything.

i feel like since her - he's tried to full the void left. fucked random women, drank a tonne of booze, indulged and indulged and double downed on his own bad behaviour. if he knows it'd piss her off, he'd do it. he's always against her because he's angry over his own mistake and lashing out / taking it out on here. from there, it snowballed into this full-blown rivalry / hatred of one another. it's a sad reality of a man way too stunted and borderline evil to just admit he's a monster who did wrong.

sad headcanon q’s… 

i honestly feel that kazuhira's greatest fear came true when he was betrayed by his best friend / obsession and was captured and tortured non-stop. i think that initially, he told himself that it would be okay - that he could handle it. he could handle the betrayal / anger from everything that happened with cypher ( to an extent ) but upon finding out everything about big boss / venom etc, i think that was just the final blow. that was his fear come true. he experienced it and, it was like snapping a stick. it broke any kind of fear that kaz ever had - he's not a man with family or connections, his family was msf and all of them were killed ( partly because of himself, too ).

i think after this fear comes true, it's partly why kaz is so furious and on edge. he's no longer apprehensive / fearful of what could happen because - it's already happened. he's experienced the worst thing, what else could happen, y'know? the man's lost friends, limbs; he's been through an actual nightmare.

i imagine after his story in tpp, he goes through a period of being entirely fearless. he has a reputation with his students / soldiers because he's so cutthroat and brutal. he's brutal because what worse could there be? it isn't until he has his daughter that some element of fear returns to him - what if something happened to her.

sad headcanon q’s… 

Sebastian |

absolutely. sebastian carries his guilt as if it's an age-old injury or something. he struggles to bare the weight of the burden of all of his sins but he palms off the realisation / truth with a quick-witted sense of humour and over-indulgence. rather than look in the mirror, he'd instead visit a peepshow. rather than swallow the hard-to-swallow pills, he'll drink hard.

he's entirely aware of the less-than-great way he treats people but he does everything in his power to avoid dwelling on it. if asked honestly, he'd perhaps tell you how much he hates himself and the things he does. but...that conversation would never come about, so instead, he just pretends that everything is okay.

Zero |

david's a very practical man, he's the sort who (as a young man especially) constantly seeks self-improvement. he's always been the sort to take criticism and improve upon whatever needs improving upon. i could see him as seeing those who deny self-reflection as the sorts who'll never grow. despite what he later becomes, he's always been overly aware of his own faults and set-backs.

i have a sort of headcanon that zero once had a love interest as a young man, that around the time of ww2 something happened that made them split and i think it's something he blames himself and holds a lot of regret regarding. it isn't something he'd necessarily talk about unless bonding with someone he trusts, but yeah - i think the zero i play, doesn't have any problems with self-reflection. it isn't until he's older and infected with the parasite and loses his mind that he essentially loses all sense of his self.

i also think he holds regret regarding what happens between him and big boss. he's very much aware of having become a 'villain' but i still imagine david would go out of his way to feed the ducks and be polite to others. he isn't the sort to be a deliberate monster.

Kano |

lmao, absolutely not. kano is genuinely very much convinced that he's the best. kano's got the sort of confidence that makes others jealous, he very much sees his actions as 'things that need doing' and thus he feels no regret while committing these various acts. i've always headcanoned that his adoptive parents did raise him with some morals but he was simply always a 'bad seed' - despite their best efforts, he was just continually misbehaved, naughty and unruly. ( nothing changed into adulthood ).

this man is peak dad content. he enjoys tea, will force your muse to watch rugby with him. man will tell you about how he 'doesnt trust daytime tv' and he will talk about what a car's engine sounds like (dont let ur muse get in a car with him, he'll be like 'hooo boy, this needs some work on it'. he watches james bond movies everytime they're on tv and if anybody objects, he gets grumpy. he also naps during them but WILL wake up the moment somebody tries to turn on something else.

he gives very good advice but does not listen to advice (including his own).

he makes a KILLER sunday roast dinner.

man doesn't really 'get' any modern day lingo but absolutely supports it because he's proud of you and the person that you've become (doesn't matter if ur muse is a serial killer, good for them).

major zero never had kids biologically because his sweetheart left him when he was a young man and he just couldn't quite move on romantically from that (?). he's a real old romantic. he believes you have to court a partner to get them and will give advice like 'BE A GENTLEMAN >:('

he laughs at those shitty comics in newspapers that nobody reads. and will explain the joke if you ask (joker meme; u wuldnt get it)

when he goes on holiday ( like, actual holiday - not a mission location ), he looks the biggest tourist in the universe. he has a safari hat and fucking beige shorts. man has zero shame (lol his name).

if anyone wants to ask him about the time he got 'abducted by aliens' go right ahead. good luck listening to him speak for 3905239 years. im sure everyone in his vicinity has heard the story 26,000 times.

so, in canon, we know that kaz has a daughter by the time of metal gear ( set roughly 5-10 years before mgs, i believe ( i might be wrong! ) ). in this game, kaz is shown to have a daughter and despite potential retcons and bla bla bla, it's absolutely part of the canon i write with him.

he does have a teenage daughter by the time mgs rolls around. i imagine she's around 14-15 years old. the child of a beautiful ( american? ) woman who either passed or left kaz sometime before the first game ( or in one au is his partner still, wink wonk ). his daughter, catherine, is a smart, outgoing girl. her hair is naturally dark and her eyes, bright. she's enthusiastic and fun-loving but not without compassion. she's seen her dad's struggles throughout the years ( though he's tried to hide them from her ) and as a result, has grown to be thoughtful and empathetic to those around her.

solid and co would almost certainly know her or of her however kaz makes a habit to keep her a secret from potential enemies & strangers. she's used to them constantly moving, used to her dad being secretive and keeping his cards close to his chest. she was taught from a young age how to wield a gun ( or a knife ) & the two have special codes for if something goes south or they should be alarmed of the people around them. for example, kaz will say certain things in person or over the phone to his daughter that may sound innocent to you or me but to them - is a code for something else.

despite her compassionate nature and the fact she's grown used to the militaristic sort of life - she does hold some resentment over the fact she's not necessarily a teenaged girl. she loves her father with all of her heart but sometimes feel some disdain toward him for bringing her into a world full of guns, violence, living in the middle of nowhere and away from other kids. she somewhat craves normality and despite his best efforts to give it to her - she's not really gotten it. she's a total daddy's girl but a part of her would give it up for normal friends and a normal school.