Me, Myself, and I, Jennifer

Anything I could

To make your heart feel okay.

In return,

You gave up on me

I don’t know what exactly it is about you, but you’ve made a large impact on my life. You showed me a very different and personal side of you that you often don’t reveal to many people. Although you say, it is hard for you to love sometimes, I saw and felt how much you cared for me. I remember when we didn’t see each other for 2 weeks because of winter break; when you visited me, all I can remember is the way you looked at me. Your eyes showed me how much you missed me and that’s honestly something I can’t forget. We never argued much in our relationship and we always enjoyed each other’s company. We actually had a very great relationship. When we talked, we had deep conversations and it would usually span for hours. Even to this day, whenever we do have the chance to talk, it’s always a really good conversation even though we only have five minutes to catch up sometimes. I’m very thankful to have met you even though it really did hurt knowing our lifestyles would eventually not fit with each other’s. 

In all honestly, you set a very high expectation for the rest of the guys I decide to date. You may not think you did much, but you reminded me and taught me how I should view myself and that I deserve a lot more than I think I do. Like, really, thank you for always reminding me of my worth because you know that I always lose sight of that. You know my weakness - that I give too much and end up giving in to people too fast. Thank you for always watching out for me, even if it’s at a distance. And also thank you for always keeping good word on me. I never expected this though. You genuinely thought that I was your best girlfriend and I honestly and humbly thank you for saying that. I honestly don’t think I did that much to show that, but I guess it is the person that I am - when I care, I care hard. And same with you, when I love, I love hard. I’m not exactly sure if I did fall in love with you, but I can probably say I was about to. 

It really does suck that the person you were with me versus how you are in social settings are very different. It really does frustrate me. But at the same time, I’m thankful that you showed me that other side of you. Like you told me, there is an attachment between us, but you can’t exactly pinpoint it. I can’t pinpoint it either, but you’re one of the only ones that can sit and listen to all the thoughts going on in my head.