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The future devil slaps.

I made a baby blanket for a pregnant woman at work and I went back and forth about it like “is this weird? To like hand make something for someone when we’re like friendly acquaintances not like bffs. God why are you so fucking awkward.” Anyway I gave it to her and she said she loved it and in the back of my head I’m like yea she’s nice and probably just humoring the weirdo. Well she texted me a picture this weekend of a scrunchy faced newborn at the hospital wrapped in the blanket I made her. And I’m like. Wow. She loved it so much she took it with her! To the hospital! To give birth! She wrapped her newborn it! I am just so filled with love and joy right now.

“She loves deeply regardless of the love she gets back in return, and it is both her biggest strength, and her biggest weakness.”

“She is sensitive. She does not see the world as it is. She's a bit up in the clouds. She cannot fit in.”

“Lonely people have enthusiasms which cannot always be explained. When something strikes them as funny, the intensity and length of their laughter mirrors the depth of their loneliness, and they are capable of laughing like hyenas. When something touches their emotions, it runs through them like Paul Revere, awakening feelings that gather into great armies.”

the thing about dream is that he feels a lot very strongly all at once. he never stopped loving calliope, he never stopped loving nada, but that doesn’t mean that he doesn’t feel other things about them too. he’s proud, he has a temper, and he’s a champion grudge holder. calliope blamed him for what happened to orpheus, and he was furious and resentful and also mourning their son’s fate. nada killed herself after the destruction of her city and he tried to take her to the dreaming rather than let her go with death and she refused him three times, even after the warning that she’d go to hell. it seems pretty petty that he won’t forgive her and release her from hell, but imagine someone that you love, that loves you, saying they’d rather be in hell than live in the same country as you. it would fuckin hurt. yeah, it’s petty to leave nada in hell for 10,000 years, but she thought her city’s destruction was divine retribution for their love, which, as a petty champion grudge holding individual myself, i would kinda take personally. and i’m not holding the hopes, dreams, fears and nightmares of every being capable of dreaming within my being.