Dreams of a Disbeliever

Dear white women feminists who loved Wonder Woman–

Ella Baker has really introduced me to the danger in egos. She really got it. I can’t unsee it now. I can’t unsee or unlearn the ways we put our egos on the forefront before our causes, movements, and even our people. She led and organized and taught in such a sustainable, selfless, intentional way…and we, I, need to revisit her for lessons and direction for my future.

IMPORTANT!!!!

it’s wild rediscovering how full of love & sweetness i am/can be. i think just being a black/brown girl in the hood, you’re taught those will be points of weakness, reasons for people to take advantage of you, the source of naivety. you’re not allowed to just wanna give love and receive love without someone assuming you’d end up hurt or (of course god forbid) in someone’s bed or pregnant (every momma’s fear). especially as Black girls, as children of immigrants, as girls who are supposed to do better & be better by “getting out of the hood”, as “smart” girls. we’ve been taught to disassociate our selves from our great capacity to love. we are misinformed in the power of a love ethic, in the strength it takes to love & let go of it. some of us don’t even get a chance to learn what it will be like to love ourselves & bodies. taught to think of love as a distraction & not as a motivation for being and thriving…