I canāt belive it is already Feb or 2026 I started this blog years ago and still havenāt gotten finished with the goal I had for it. So much life has passed and my priorities always seem to become something other than this blog. Iām surprised, tumblr still exists. Right now I feel painfully close to JOB the prophet. Sometimes I wonder how many miracles I need to keep me faithful. How much can a person take before they crackā¦Im still standing and Apparently I need many miracles because I fall short in so many ways. Iām very aware of the ways I fall short, im very aware of my own weaknesses and sometimes it brings me to the depths of despair. So, right now I need a pick me up but currently Iām my own worst enemy and my own biggest cheerleader. Itās a bipolar vibe so im gonna do my best to lift myself up and move forward. Iām finding it really hard to share the hardships Iāve been facing over the past year, I think maybe because I wanted this blog to be all about the miracles Iāve experienced from God, and while this last year has been full of them, it has also brought the most difficult challenge Iāve ever faced. Itās almost as if I write it down it cements it into reality forever and Iām having a hard time wanting to do that. I donāt like to dwell on negative things but this challenge has been so hard for me to let go of. Even though Iāve been blessed by so many people and been given so many opportunities to grow. Letting go is so difficult and it often makes me want to break down. I want to cry but then my body wonāt allow me to, itās like it refuses to let this pain become real. We are learning about Enoch in church this week and to be honest itās really hard to listen sometimes. Enoch was aware of his weaknesses, but the Lord God almighty gave him the faith to walk with him. The saviour was the only one who truly faced this world alone.He was alone in gethsemane, he was betrayed by his apostles, he was forsaken by God. Why did this happen, to help me? Was it real? I choose to say yes it was real, he did die for every person on this earth. He was half God. He was the miracle of this world. How can I belive in such a thing? Well when I intentionally follow him and do my best to do so I witness miracles. But the thing is that I must be willing to be aware of the miracles. The lord promised Enoch that if he would walk with him, Mountains will flee before us and rivers shall turn their course. So itās inspiring for me to try to do these things in my private day and life and walk woth God. Iām at least inspired to try. Hereās to a new year of growth and faith.













