"Care of me, for if not, I will surely die. I don't feed or clean myself and I am always high. Without your help, I have no hope to survive.

I'll bring no money or conversation, unmotivated and bored. Staring blankly into space, absorbing all you have worked for. I will disappoint those who think I can do more.

Matto <3

Happy birthday Mello!

1) panel redraw 😳

Happy birthday Mello 🥳🎉🎊

it’s even worse when matt is there. laying next to him on the bed or at the couch in front of the screens. always one whisper away, but mello doesn’t make a sound. every time, he stays still, frozen in fear, waiting for the other shoe to finally drop.

he reaches out and lightly touches matt’s arm for comfort, never waking him. he opens his mouth, as matt is hunched over his controller across the room, but the words die and rot on his tongue.

he never says it. he lets the dread of the inevitable envelop him and keeps it all to himself. he can’t let matt know he’s afraid of dying. matt is scared enough of mello’s own death for both of them. 

“If you think I’m happy, Mello, I’m not.”

Mello request from 100 faces expression meme challenge