I'm breaking down!

do people miss me I can’t imagine myself as a person others think about

do u ever feel like every single person you care about cares about someone else more

i want someone to hurt me. i want to be hurt so badly that i am left broken and empty and alone and completely unable to go back to the way things were before. because maybe then i’ll finally have a good reason to feel so awful all the time. but this makes me a bad person, doesn’t it, to want to be hurt the way other people have been hurt? people shouldn’t be hurt like that. it shouldn’t be something i want. i’m awful, aren’t i?

When ur venting on ur vent account and suddenly feel super corny

im not anyone's first choice. im not anyone's favorite. people may tell me i mean a lot to them and that im special to them but i know there's someone they'll always choose over me

I keep waiting for someone to notice i’m not okay without me having to say it.

i just want to cry and sob and be worse and maybe be worth something and feel shitty enough to matter

can I go back to November and make myself not a coward pretty please