Fertile, full of feeling and yet ever fleeting

At once reality but now with the passing of time

Only a memory

And when retrieved a few hairs shy from what it actually was

Now distorted now exaggerated

Were you really that happy was it really that sad

In your own vehicle, navigating life;

Being happy, being sad.

And when you were finally close you felt like all the things that bring warmth;

Like the winter sun, like a cozy blanket.

And when i stopped to admire, you began to pull away.

The distance between us increased and you felt like all those things that slip away;

Once upon a time on a night like most others. The moon was full and the sky was starless. Beneath, in a well-kept garden there stood a tree. Leaves green and dangling off its branches. Amongst the branches a beautiful web was crafted, upon which stood a garden spider, female of its species.

On the edges of the web a male approached her. Carefully of course, for any haste might bring him toe to toe with death; for a hungry female is quick to prow and consumes any who dare tread upon her web, even her suitors. The male not wanting to end up being her dinner before any mating took place, rhythmically plucked a strand of webbing, transmitting a vibration (a love buzz if you will) letting her know that it was only the urge to pass on his genes that brought him around. He waited for her to signal her receptiveness and after her go ahead he closed the distance between them. All while knowing that even though she was receptive he could still get eaten after mating successfully.

“One hurdle down, one more to go,” thought the male “for there’s still a chance of me becoming her dinner.”

The dilemma of a male garden spider, whose primary goal is to reproduce, is that they may get eaten after mating. Used as a source of nutrients for their own offspring. As if that’s not enough to worry about, if a female spider does not find them to be a suitable mate, she doesn’t reject him by shooing him away, she eats him! Making him a nutritional source for either herself or another male’s offspring. Offing him before he gets to complete his life’s task.

As the male came closer he got a better view of the female’s majesty, he could see that she was three times larger, as she stood in the little moonlight that made it past the leaves. Closer he got but then realized he had to take down the webbing laced with her pheromones so no other males could be drawn close.

Before that though he thought to ask “Do you find me suitable?”

“What?” the female spider responded.

“Are we going to mate or are you going to eat me before I even get the chance.”

“Come closer and find out,” the female uttered all so seductively.

“No, not until you tell me,” he said, trying to be assertive, “You’re obliged to tell me, my life is at st―No, my legacy is at stake.”

“Me? Obliged? I’m definitely not.”

“Look. Just now I was about to take down these webs that are laced with your pheromones. If it wasn’t for your pheromones I’d be elsewhere. I’m here because these chemicals, which are yours, brought me here. Take responsibility! Let me know if any further action I take with you will wind up with me being eaten before I get the chance to reproduce, so I can stop right here and go mate successfully elsewhere.”

“Yes the pheromone is my handiwork,” she said. “But I didn’t produce them with the intent of attracting you specifically. Any male within range could pick up the scent and come. If I had done this to attract you specifically then I’d be obliged, then I’d have some responsibility for you because I would be singling you out, influencing your decisions and basically rendering you unable to choose any other female. You coming here however is purely circumstantial, for you happened to be in range. If not my web you would have come across some other female’s web. This encounter is not due to intent on my part but due to the unfolding of desire in both of us.”

“Fine,” said the male, after digesting what she had said. He decided to take his chance.

SIR NIGHTEYE: POLARIZING?? AND UNFORGATABLE

It’s been 6 weeks since episode 88 of My Hero Academia aired, the last in its fourth season, and there’s one character that’s still on my mind. Sir Nighteye (Sa Naitoai).

To be honest I was quite confused after my first encounter with Sir Nighteye. He seemed like the typical uptight intellectual you see in most anime (and like most he had a peculiarity, that thing of him having an appreciation for humor). And this bothered me cause he didn’t feel like someone who had spent years fighting crime side by side with the once No.1 hero, All Might.

Over the course of the episodes leading up to the raid of the Shie Hassaikai mansion, the show uses its impeccable narrative focalization to give its viewers more insight into Nighteye’s stance as a pro hero. Nighteye’s quirk, Foresight, allows him to see the entire future of a person provided he first touches and then looks them in the eye. The fact that he can see the future of a target in great detail (second for second), makes his quirk one of the most impressive seen in the show’s fourth season (let’s not forget chisaki kai’s overhaul though…dude has the power of creation and destruction. he has full control over matter!!!). We learn that when Nighteye used his quirk on all might, he saw the death of the world’s No.1 hero.

This and the revelation that he believes the future to be unchangeable, made me understand why Nighteye was wound up so tight. Nighteye had known long before, that the world would lose its symbol of peace.

Ever since the retirement of all might after his exhaustive battle with all for one, the show has been highlighting the effects of the loss of the world’s symbol of peace. The tension, the rise in crime, the dread and anxiety, and the sudden weight thrust upon pro heroes as they realize just how much All Might had been carrying. It’s clear that everybody needs to step up (a sort of call back to the hero academy’s moto: Plus Ultra!). Nighteye had been living in this world (a world with no symbol of peace) long before anybody else and this is evident when I think back to how the show brilliantly switched narrative and focused on who Mirio (lemillion) is and Why Nighteye was so hard on Midoriya, believing that the former was much more up to the task of receiving One for All.

Nighteye suffers a brutal injury during his encounter with chisaki (Who’s a downright amazing antagonist) and ends up on a hospital bed slowly dying. He has a farewell conversation with Mirio (Who lost his quirk during the raid) and uses his quirk one last time to see Mirio’s new future (since Midoriya proved his belief about the future predictions by his quirk being unchangeable, to be wrong). Nighteye dies, pleased with the hero Mirio will eventually become.

My soul is searching for the sky (just like a natural man)

Got an ache in my tummy and a room full of gloom but outside it's still sunny

I've got a whole lot to prove

A whole lot to do

But I don't know how so I keep hounding you

They say, you've got a whole lot to do

But there's so little room

So I end up here

How your garden grows

Cause I just wanna fly

Stuck else where in time so i

Miss out on paradise

At least i catch its glimpses in your eyes

I want to get closer