MelanieTris

After a morning of being a sobbing mess and talking to vet and a friend, I decided to let her go. Her prognosis wasn't good.

I'm sure my being gone for 4 weeks, plus the major construction that's happening on our condo buildings that has bren very noisy, wasn't helping her stress level.

I got to see her one last time by zoom, but no more cuddles with my sweet Ella Boo.

Jack is by himself now and he and Ella were buddies. My pet sitter goes by twice a day to give him his meds and love on him, but she's going to go by in the middle of the day too.

My care for my dad's arranged. I have medical alert we need to set up. Just need to do a couple more things this weekend then headed home Tuesday night.

I really hope 2023 is better.

Oh hey! I take the worst selfies. Random picture and post to show my current living situation.

My 89 year old father took a bad fall. Turns out he had UTI which makes the elderly weak. His hip had been bothering him for awhile but he's been using a walker since the fall. Xray scheduled for hip and has doctor appointment on 12/26.

But I've been down here 2 weeks. Brought work stuff down, got faster internet speed and have been working here since the 3rd.

He mentioned assisted living before I got here but now won't go on any tours. He has enough money to cover it but I think he's concerned about his dog and cat. And he's a smoker (god help me, I'm going to age 10 years breathing it in). I'm going on tours tomorrow but doubt he'll go. And I'm looking into home health care but he lives in bumfuckville so there's not a lot of options.

I have good days and bad days. He's basically holding me hostage here because of his decision not to agree to assisted living. I get angry and pissed and have told him I can't stay here indefinitely.

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Tonight's run. To me this is the perfect time of year to run. Its light in the evening, cool but not cold, and you can run in light long sleeve tee.

Also had dental appointment today. Regular cleaning but I've had a tooth that's bothering me. No cracks or fractures. He said it's probably the crown that needs to be replaced. And I should start using a mouth guard.

This morning I go get groceries and when I pay for them I legit can't remember the PIN for my debit card. Shit! I try again, can't remember. Fuck! Why didn't I use a credit card? Because they don't take those. You also bag your own groceries. Everything is cheaper. (Trivialbob would probably love this place.)

So they held onto my groceries and I went home to see how much cash I had in my mad money jar. $80. 3 years ago that would probably cover it but I needed $107.51 today. I called the bank and was on hold for several minutes and when someone got on the phone it was the fraud department even though the number I found online was the one for them. So, of course they couldn't help me.

I called a general number that said they were closed and figured out I could change the PIN over the phone by an automated system.

Do I remember the old number now? Nope. I swore it had the sequential numbers of 456. I've always hesitated when entering it and had to think about it because it cane from the bank. I'm sure I'll wake up out of a dead sleep and remember it. But I changed it to something more personal.

Today's run. My pace has been trending downward along with my weight. Thing that make you go hmm...

It was beautiful blue sky this morning but said rain was on the way around 2. It was hard to believe but hey look it's here.

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Today's run. Took a few walking breaks (and one complete stop after running up a steep hill. Hope to fet in good shape that I dint have to stop once I'm at the top.) Been a hot minute since I ran 3 miles.

Last night's run. I'm basically doing a reset with running so building up. Have permission to take some walking breaks and lady might I did because calves were tight. I've been using Hokas but recently bought some saucony triumphs and think I like them better.

Ran 2.5 and then walked the rest of the way back to my place and to the store to get a couple of things.

Jeremy (yep, still seeing that guy) said to keep runs easy and not let heart rate get too high or if it does take walking break. I'm definitely starting over in so many ways.

Hi! I've been a lurking but not posting for something like 2 years? No particular reason but life was just too much. A lot of energy was used to just get thru the days.

Anyway, I won't attempt to give you an update in one long post but other than not really going anywhere (again) because of covid, things are alright.

Working from home still, my dad's still kicking (but making me nuts), I'm getting back into running consistently, and snuggling with Jack and Ella for comfort.

Hope everyone else is doing ok.