Before I Forget

I'm married now! The honeymoon was amazing! We went to Monterey for five days and just spent every day together going to the aquarium, the beach, and fancy dining places. But then we flew out to Virginia, and all the stress of life hit me. Then the next day we flew to Hawaii, and I became overwhelmed. I'm not sure how I'm going to handle life here in Hawaii...I don't have any friends or family and I'm not attending school here. I have Isaac but he is going to be so busy with school...I need to find a job to keep me occupied or I might just end up depressed and I don't want to become a burden for my husband...I feel so lost.

TOMORROW! I GET TO SEE HIM AGAIN TOMORROW!!!!!!!

My bridal shower was yesterday! The ladies in my ward threw it together and it was perfect! I didn't have to be the center of attention for too long, I was grateful for that! So one of the ladies had contacted Isaac and asked him some questions and I had to try and guess what he said. Some of the things were too cute not to write down. So here it goes. What quality about her is your favorite? She's committed! When she loves--she loves! What quality about you is her favorite? "I just love her. She is my priority and I just want to look out for her" "The first time I told her I loved her, I told her in Spanish--she didn't get it" He's such a cutie and I am so excited to be spending eternity with him :)

Today was my last day working for Vicki. Though I am happy to be done because that means I am sooo close to seeing my Isaac again, I'm also a little sad. I really enjoyed my time, not always, but I felt like there was a purpose to the work I was doing. I was helping someone out, not just doing work for money. Caregiving work is so rewarding...and so is serving others. I would love to help and serve others as often as I can. I hope this feeling doesn't go away, because I know it's a good one.

Isaac was tempted today, but he didn't fall victim to that temptation...when he was tempted he looked at pictures of me instead and it brought him back to reality. I'm so worried about him...that temptation seems to be very present in his life right now and I'm not there to help him to fight the urge to slip back into those habits. I know he is strong, but in a moment of weakness even the strongest can fall. How do I help him? Can I be enough? Can I pull him back if he falls into It again..? I just don't know.

Update: I was super grumpy today for no good reason. Isaac is amazing and it just sucks being away from him for so long. Every day is harder but on the positive side there's only ONE MORE WEEK

Today is starting out to be pretty emotional. I think it's the birth control effecting me..but I am just so grumpy and Isaac is too busy to talk to me so it's like I just have to deal with this alone. I don't like this distance. No, I hate it. It adds so much stress to our relationship...

About a few days after I started birth control I started getting pain in my stomach. I'm not sure it's actually related but a heating pad really feels wonderful on my belly right now. Heating pads are a girls best friend.

May 25th 2016 Isaac surprised me today with a bouquet of flowers! Even though we are almost 3000 miles apart he finds ways every day to show me how much he loves me...he means so much to me. I love him😍

There's a definite strain on the relationship because of this distance.

I know that my whole life God has been there, he has seen me struggle, he has lifted me up when I was ready and presented so many blessings in my life. Because of trying to come closer to him, and the choices that were made and promptings I followed, I was lead to Isaac, the love of my life. Isaac is one of the greatest blessings in my life. Every day I am reminded of how amazing he is and how lucky I am to even have him in my life...but even more so that he has allowed me to be such a huge part of his life...and even more that he loves me so completely.