so i can sleep at night

Thinking of colors beyond perception

Intoxicating, triggering neon lights

Under the moon when the chokecherries are ripe

The green growing ones & the winged

shared their songs with me

Sprouting prayers ascending up

beyond the stars, past the falling blessing

i caught mid-flight

Under the moon when the chokecherries are ripe

I can feel the spirits urging me to inipi

because they know I’m not alright

Under the moon when the chokecherries

are ripe

I day dream of Wovoka’s dream on the

rolling prairies behind my eyes

Where sky meets plight

Now the changing Moon

is shaking the leaves

But the finches still cleanse and sing

in the water offering

& the dragonfly round dances with me

As the winds of Grandmother Earth

slowly turn cold my heart aches

For my friends are going away

But when the chokecherries are ripe again i won’t be late

Under the moon when the chokecherries

are ripe

Primordial equilibrium

Sentimental frequencies

Back against a tree because I don’t have a pipe

early morning hours is invigorating

Hopelessly romantic

Alluring

But there’s nowhere to run, nowhere to hide when my world dies

Dawn’s beautiful blue light tainted gold

I feel myself dancing in the rain on

world’s edge when I close my eyes

So close it makes me cry

I can feel the rain drops gracing

my face in this lonely room

I fill my lungs up with smoke

first thing in the morning and

enjoy the serenity fading

through the curtain

A lull gray, therapeutic blue

accompanied by a solacing

white noise advertenly

But then the sun has the audacity

to show it’s bright, infuriating face

that shines on the scars of creation

I think I’ll lay back down

and not partake in-

—

Raging, dancing against the urge to

give up but it’s hard to let go of

suicidal tendencies when it’s

become second nature as a way to cope

Reciting crestfallen anthems over the

moon brings me hope

Tears want to fall but

I’d rather trip a little light fantastic

and drop dead from glee

Give my cares of the world

Sun

Don't come up yet

I want to see how much

love I can regret

I want to see how many

Sorrow dressed in its best

I want to be a flock of birds

waiting for the sun to rise

Held myself while I cried

I can't seem to put words together anymore

These feelings aching to be heard

I'm tired but I can't sleep

I'm afraid I'll miss these blue evermores

Drink myself to sleep

Dance myself to sleep

Smoke myself to sleep

Write myself to sleep

Some mornings i wish the sun

would just stay down

Good grief

Stop time for an eternity

 of moonlight & broken hearts

Somewhere between dimensions

Somewhere intoxicating

I don't know what to do anymore

it's either sleep

Winters embrace

Pale skies to forget my name

Love red Ethers

who do you blame?

I could watch you all day

The way you move with my moods

Therapeutic colors dissolving

what my purpose

is here so i'll probably

just surrender to

the sky & say I tried

Indulge in starlit Toxicity

Burn down cities

I love her but she doesn't love me

All i want to do is feel the sky

Puffy eyes & Serenity

All i want is to walk without

this itch

Hope my eyes stay in my head

Let Nature swill me

as her Ethers hold me 'till i'm dead

But this unhinging itch

makes my eyes bleed

She keeps me inside my mind

turns my skin pale like the damned

Doesn't matter if i bled, nothing matters anymore

Pop these sedatives

Reveries almost take me off the road

Feeling peace from songs i don't know

Russian Roulette on green pastures,

beneath blue skies

Will it be Jekyll or Hyde?

On my way home I pay a visit

to St. Ann & her dead

Vivifying wind

Beautiful world

You won't bitter down my soul

High off violet ethers & sirens love

underneath early morning skies

&

watch as light enhances

the beauty of the land

as I wait on the in-between

amidst the TV glow

Brooding over broken hearts

& feeling past lives nostalgia