Lost

I am one bad moment away from being edgeless. I keep my hands together. I tell myself: if the break will come, it will need to wait. We don't have time to breathe deeply. We only have glass to eat but at least it's something so get to chewing. If we are going to be swallowed by this, it will need to call three weeks in advance and schedule an appointment. Yes we shake so bad the coffee shop won't serve us espresso anymore. Yes we keep having panic attacks at 3 AM. Yes we cry randomly all over our kitchen floor. Who cares. No time for that.

how do you deal with anxiety ?

Build yourself up everyday with positive thoughts.

“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence…”

“When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I’m afraid to lose you.”

I think sometimes people who have mental illness (myself included) forget that the reason we may be so tired all the time, is because we’re expending our energy with internally fighting inside ourselves. We’re using up our energy to tackle anxiety, or depression, or whatever the case may be. Fighting against that, along with doing daily chores? Studying? Keeping up with life in general? It can be EXHAUSTING.

things i’m good at: